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It hurts more every day The tightness The grasp The hold Wondering when it will end If it will end

Constriction is a poem written by Kelli J. Gavin and shared with The Ugly Writers with the theme Recovery for the month of March.




It hurts more every day

The tightness

The grasp

The hold

Wondering when it will end

If it will end

The tears are constant

I can’t seem to wipe them

They keep reappearing




I’ve reached my limit

Don’t believe I can continue

Immobilized by pain

Held captive by the weight

Fearful this is all I am

My chest is constricted

Can’t take a full breath

Now is when I cave


Fade away

I have nothing left to give

Never anything to offer

All strength depleted

Yet I will not stop




There has to be more

Something gotta to give

Release the pressure

The tightness

The constant hold

It must stop

The Falling



This constriction must cease


A friend who struggles with depression and anxiety was struggling and felt that she was at an impasse.  I shared with her that she wasn’t on her own and that I was there to support her. I started writing about what she spoke about.  She spoke of the weight, the heft, the burden of what she was thinking and feeling and experiencing.  When I shared this piece with her, she said yes. yes. She said the words like falling, burning, aching resonated in her soul.


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Kelli J Gavin
Kelli J Gavin of Carver, Minnesota is a Writer, Blogger, and Professional Organizer. Kelli’s first two books, ‘I Regret Nothing’ and ‘My Name is Zach-A Teenage Perspective on Autism’, were released in 2019. She has also co-authored 15 anthology books. Her 3rd and 4th books will be published in 2020 and 2021. Kelli’s work can be found with Clarendon House Publishing, The Ugly Writers, Southwest Media, Zombie Pirates Publishing, Writing In a Woman’s Voice, The Writers Newsletter, Writers Unite!, Academy of the Heart & Mind, Sweatpants & Coffee, Love What Matters, The Rye Whiskey Review, Spillwords, The Writers and Readers Magazine, Mercurial Stories, 121 Words, HerStry, Passionate Chic Magazine, Ariel Chart, The Basil O’Flaherty, PPP Ezine, Otherwise Engaged, Pleather Skin, Paper.Li, and The New Ink Review, among others. My Name Is Zach was awarded as one of ‘The Best Special Needs Books of 2019’ and one of ‘The Best Special Needs Books of all Time’ by Book Authority. She is also featured among the ‘101 Emerging Authors From Around the World’ with Sweetycat Press published in 2020. Find Kelli on Twitter and Instagram @KelliJGavin and explore her blog at
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