Starlight Confession
I loved you when
You didn’t love me
When you couldn’t love me
When you shouldn’t love me

I loved you when
You didn’t love me
When you couldn’t love me
When you shouldn’t love me

Nothing was ordinary when it came to you
You would create adventures from nothing
You found fun around every corner

Are you arriving?
Maybe leaving?
Where are you going?
What brings you back?
Let it be me
Let it be us

I can not make sense of it all
Not completely
Even when it is right in front of me

His love swung low
Gathering me up
Leaving nothing behind
Broken pieces and busted edges
Acknowledging my need to heal

When the tears fell the first time
I wiped them as soon as they touched my cheeks
When they fell again
I wasn’t as quick to tend to the tears

To increase my speed
Away
From you
From words
That assail
And hit
Striking hot
I won’t return
Never again

It hurts more every day
The tightness
The grasp
The hold
Wondering when it will end
If it will end

Maybe there was something more
Someplace where my mind could rest
Where I wouldn’t feel such constant flux
A place where sleep would come easily
But those roads lead to nothing I wanted

Time seemed to pass so slowly
Yet so quickly and I begged for more time
It happens almost daily
One touch will prompt me
Even stop me in my tracks

You told me of your dreams
And I told you everything
About joy and hurt and love gone dim
You only smiled and pulled me near
I still love that you were the one
Who could chase away my fear

I still walk down lonely corridors hoping to find you on my next turn.
You are never there waiting for me.
I hear you whispering my name more often than I care to admit.