00:00 hours

00:00 Hours

I made it at 00:00.
Since there are no deafening sounds from monsters trying to destroy me. There is no light bulb forcing me to write about you. Lastly, I made it since my soul endures the pain without you.

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Angry(‘s) Thoughts On Relationships

Quick random thought I’ve been having: Relationships are freaking hard. And it’s not because I’m necessarily speaking from experience. This is based purely on observation. Good relationships, bad relationships – all of them are HARD. Like think about it. First off, you have to find someone. And that someone can’t just be anybody. There’s criteria…

Where Did You Fail Today?

My father used to ask me every dinner the question: “where did you fail today?” I thought it was an insane question. Instead of asking how was school or my day, this stressful question always pops out. It turns out to be a mind-setting questions for me not to get afraid of failing at something….

The Ghost of You

“I’ve been a train wreck since you left. There are days when I swear I’m fine but then one trigger from you makes my hands shake so much that I spilled my coffee. I’m half insane here living with the ghost of you, the way you kiss my hands, your scent, your hands. You’ve left…

Conjugating Verbs

Why We Didn’t Work Out. Dear You, I remember how we met. It was an unexpected and, at the time, totally unpleasant first encounter. I wasn’t expecting it though. You approached me and you started talking. I wasn’t listening though and I only answered when I had to cause in my mind it was like…

Wonders

Why do we put so much frantic effort into suppressing our most basic natural instincts? The one that hurts us the most is the emotional infidelity. Because the full palette of emotions we experience includes pain. And being dishonest leads to emotional war that happens inside ourselves. I wonder if people prefer to be lied…

Naught

Time clicks as I wait, The hour ends before me take, Sitting, thinking, waiting, My mind escapes.   The day grows old as night passes, Anticipating, watching, staring, seeing, Yet, nothing. Silence begins the day, As morning comes without notice, Tears begin to fall, slowly.   The day moves on without hope, Wishing to be…

Jitters

Every year since I finished high school, around March and April, I get constantly bothered by an uneasy feeling. I usually get fast and hard thumps on my chest and a troubled tummy. I get anxious, nervous, and fearful that something bad is about to happen even when there’s none. It has become so much…