I won’t go
I won’t change
I won’t worry
I won’t regret
They say words can be used to indicate similarities and differences of other people. But the most vital contribution is to bring forth encouragement and positive ideas to the ones reading it.
I didn’t pull away but drew him near
Now he too possessed lips so red
White bolts from above
Rain cuts on kitchen tables,
releasing bad blood.
I didn’t feel the need to justify my beliefs but I did feel the need to let him how inappropriate his verbal attack was. I reminded him Lily was watching. He didn’t care. He kept insulting me.
Lost in my own world of pop after eight hour drudgery
Completely dead to the fact that the shout of “Let There Be…” is sounding
Youth told me that love breaks bones
but time made me wiser with laughs
as Life showed me that love grows
into a companionship of two souls.
Today I failed. Failed as a mom. Failed miserably.
It is all about working through those hurts and finding a way to process them while letting them hurt a bit less every day. There is no time table.
Against my will, the salty tears assaulted my cheeks as quickly as I could wipe them away. I just needed a good cry. I needed to dispel all this hurt and just move on. I wasn’t sure I could do this. Another gulp of air and a sob caught in my throat.
When a judgmental comment makes its way to my lips and can tell the condition of my heart is failing, I reel it back in. I reel it in. All of it. Stop myself in my tracks. Those words I am ready to share do not encourage.
My heart continues to melt more than I wish it would. When loved ones hurt deeply, when sickness invades a body, when relationships fail, when joy and sorrow abound.