It is creeping in like a shadow in the night
The words I wanted to say remains like a still moonlight.
Why do I feel heaviness inside of me?
Why do I feel like I am going to burst like a balloon filled with water?
As if watching you be happy with her would make me feel happy too, I am, for you at least I know that.
But inside, all I wanted was to shout and cry and tell you can it be me instead?
These words are kept lock inside me.
Words I wanted to say for so long.
Words that was meant for you but doesn’t mean anything to you.
But I’d like to keep them as long as I can to keep all these feelings that are slowly eating me away.
I don’t have the right to get jealous. As if you would even care if I do.
It can never be, I know. We can never be.
You are my happiness and yet you are also my sadness.
You are my sunshine and yet you were like a storm
You are my strength and yet you are my weakness.
You are my love and yet you are hers.