I Can’t Say Goodbye To You

I Can’t Say Goodbye To You is an essay written and shared by ExBeat13 and shared with The Ugly Writers under the theme Contrition for the month of August

I Can’t Say Goodbye To You

I can’t say goodbye to you…

That’s the truth. I’ve tried so many times, but I always end up coming back to you. You’re like a magnet that pulls me in, even when I know I should stay away.

You’re not good for me. You make me feel things that I don’t want to feel. You hurt me, you lie to me, you cheat on me. You don’t respect me, you don’t value me, you don’t love me.

But I love you. I love you more than anything in this world. I love you more than myself. And that’s the problem.

I can’t say goodbye to you because I can’t let go of you. I can’t let go of the memories, the hopes, the dreams. I can’t let go of the person that I thought you were, the person that I wanted you to be.

I can’t say goodbye to you because I’m afraid of being alone. I’m afraid of losing the only thing that makes me feel alive. I’m afraid of facing the reality that you’re not the one for me.

I can’t say goodbye to you because I’m addicted to you. I’m addicted to the highs and lows, the drama and the passion. I’m addicted to the pain and the pleasure, the tears and the laughter.

I can’t say goodbye to you because I don’t know how to. How do you say goodbye to someone who has been your everything for so long? How do you say goodbye to someone who still has a piece of your heart?

I can’t say goodbye to you… But maybe I should.

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