Trying to Regret
I don’t know how or what made us do it
but we did
All the firsts I’m guessing
Those moments you see on TV
you hear about on the radio
90 year old couples you see
still holding hands walking down the street
the way it should be
love conquers all
in the end that’s what you want to remember
We had a lot of good times
some we barely made it through
things that will never feel the same
unless it’s with you.
We were doing it.
What we set out to do.
Somewhere along the line we forgot about that couple.
Sad to say neither of us noticed it either.
We no longer saw how we made each other feel
So we fought over how we felt.
Slowly giving up
searching for anything that would help fill that emptiness.
I can’t speak for her or whether or not she believes me
I did try and what I did to help myself
I didn’t search for
It was there and took my mind off things
later taking me away from you
Telling myself you were selfish for not noticing
or wondering why I was making new holes in my belt
when it was me confused
For Better or For Worse and I decided to use
we weren’t saints
but I do apologize for not being there
that morning to work things out
maybe I expected too much or too little
either way I’m sorry.
So today I’m sober as I’ll ever be
and of everything I’ve ever wrote
I really hope this one reaches you