I was planning to rant this out through a twitter thread, but then I figured, why not write about it for everyone to see? Work and relationships seem to come from different ends of a spectrum, and balancing the two really requires hard work. But do we really have to compromise one for the other? or is there a way to make both of them work accordingly?
For someone who always makes sure to bring her A-game in everything that she commits herself into, it’s really hard not to extend for a few hours at times, more so, to reply to text messages during work hours. And I always thought this is a mature thing to do, an adulting reality, even. I thought when you grow older people start to understand that you are not always available and your world does not revolve on your personal relationships anymore. Apparently, it doesn’t work that way in the adult world either.
It baffles me how some people feel so entitled of our time sometimes. Sure, you are in a relationship, but that doesn’t mean our worlds should revolve around each other, right? (Okay, I can only speak for myself. So let me know if you have a different take on this.) Something that is really hard for me to wrap my mind around is how some people can demand you to turn your back at something that you are doing for your future. The question that has always lingered on my mind is, who is the selfish one in this situation?
Being a person who has always been good at balancing her time and setting her priorities straight, I never thought I’d be in a situation where I’d have to choose between two things that I really put so much effort on. I thought I could put the two on equilibrium, but turns out I couldn’t. Especially when both of them demand a huge amount of time and effort, and there are times that the one really gets compromised for the other.
As much as it breaks my heart, I chose to keep on working on something that would surely benefit me in the long run. Not only me but my family. A decision that I thought only fictional characters get to make. More than just the money and helping out my family, I want to make something for myself. I want to do things that my future self would thank me for. By doing so, I have to sacrifice something that I really care about bigtime.
I keep on telling myself that if that person is really for me, maybe we’ll meet again when our priorities are already aligned with each other? or maybe the time will come that he will come into terms with the fact that I have other things in life that I need to take care of? Either way, I wish that person the best and I do hope we meet again.
…and I hope none of you gets caught in a situation where you have to choose between two things that you value so much. Because to be frank, it was a tough choice to make.
To you, yes, it was a tough choice to make.
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