Hello, Everyone! My name’s Amanda and I am the Author and Creator of I’m The Good Wife! I am 22 years old and I have been happily married going on 5 years with my high school sweetheart, but we have been together going on 7 years. Crazy right?!? When we first got married everyone thought we did it because I was pregnant which was not the case but because I found some I loved and who loved me through all my craziness and his as well (although not as much). We bought our dream house two years ago and have spent that time in getting it exactly how we wanted it to look, which we still have a lot to do. I wanted to create a space and atmosphere that shows that there is true love out there, and that is calming and relaxing a space where you can come too for understanding and friendship.
I also wanted to spread awareness about something very personal to me and that is mental disabilities or in my case, Generalized Anxiety Disorder as well as insomnia. I have had an anxiety disorder all my life, the earliest I could remember is elementary/middle school through my parent’s divorce and through all the moving around we did. I’m not going to lie, it festered because I kept it to myself, I told myself that I was fine. I wasn’t going to let my disability define me, I was going to move on with my life and keep going and pretend that nothing was wrong, until it wasn’t.
So fast forward through all the moving around my family did and I kind of tuned it out and kept telling myself I was fine. Well, that worked for a while at my last job, which I loved in the beginning, I started to hate because my boss let people get away with a lot of things. They treated me so horribly I couldn’t sleep at night, I would get so upset and anxious about going back to work every day and everything else that was going on and one night I just couldn’t shut my brain OFF!
So after several trial and errors of prescription and nonprescription medications, I finally said enough, this job is literally killing me, my soul, my body, and my mind. So I did the only thing that made sense and quit!!! I can not express the feeling I felt of finally quitting a job that I hated and at times loved but was so horribly bad for me.
I wanted to share my story and say its ok to be afraid, to be afraid to quit the job that you hate and that is eating you alive. Stop worrying about people assuming that we are messed up in the head for having a disability, and that it’s ok to need to have someone to talk to because the people around you think you’re “faking it” or that it’s something as silly as not wanting to talk to or be around strangers, or feeling anxious in general. Because they don’t get it or they simply do not want too, we can’t force someone to change their mind all we can do is show them what it is like and show them all the facts and hope for the best.
But no matter what They think, you know the truth and you know when you need help and understanding, and not ridicule. A place where you can go to feel at ease and understood, a friend you can talk to when things get to be too much or if you just need someone to talk too. I am here for that purpose, my husband is my go to person as well as my mom because she has similar problems. Let me be here for you, a friend and someone you can talk to whether it’s just about goodies you just bought or because you’re going through a hard time in your life.
Last but not least, my place is not JUST about Anxiety or Insomnia or even about my marriage and giving advice as a wife, but also about being who you are and embracing yourself as well as loving yourself. And yes that means sometimes putting yourself first before the kids or your husband/boyfriend or even girlfriend. To let go of being a mother, wife, sister, daughter or even a friend and to take special care of yourself because if you don’t you will grow to regret and harbor feelings of neglect and you will eventually take that out on someone, so before you do always schedule a girl day.
A day that is all about you, pamper yourself and take a long hot bubble bath, go shopping even if it is only window shopping and rest in comfy pajamas and drink a hot beverage and read a book! A place you can go to for beauty advice and well as awesome makeup finds, a place to go if you’re looking for great romance books to read, and I will eventually be doing reviews on the books I read as well as my top favorite games to play on Xbox and on my laptop.
Starting this blog has given me something, not just an outlet for my fears and anxieties but also a place to express myself through creativity. Which is important to me especially since I never went to college and for a girl who only got her G.E.D, this lets me know I can accomplish something and give something back to the world even if it is only online. I feel like I am helping people, which is something I have always wanted to do. It may take me a while to get to where I want to be or where I want to go but at least I started, and that counts right?
“Nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the bullcrap, take chances & never have regrets, because at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted” – Marilyn Monroe
Please check Amanda on her very own site here.