My 2018 – Transcendence

Confrontation is such a divine gesture. It takes one’s cup brimming with apprehension to do so. It’s normal to be taken aback by interrogations we didn’t see coming. Yet, what’s worse is that we knew long before of the answer, but we deny it to ourselves; pretending it didn’t ever cross our mind.

I recall the first time I tried to ride a bike. I was around 7 years – lean and short-haired. I had a small red bike with worn-out training wheels. Its rubber grip has soft vertical lines to it. I always held it tightly while I aimlessly drive around every corner, puddle, and tuft of our street. My Gemini-self had always felt giddy for every forelock carelessly wafted by the wind, notwithstanding the sweat and dust on the air.

It was a mid-summer afternoon, and the heat was pleasingly bearable. Papa decided that it’s time for me to ride the bike without any aid. He removed the training wheels and we set off to practice. He started to push me, a second after did I pedal. I was feeling more happy than anxious. I kept on pushing the pedals while I maintain my pace as he continued to push me. After a few meters, everything felt so lightweight, so easy, and so… right.

Let go, Papa!” I said, but I did not hear any response.

I slowed down and stopped. I was surprised to see my dad around 5 feet away as I glanced at him over my shoulder. It was a success, I thought. I did it. My smile faded in an instant as I laid my eyes on his. He was looking at something else, and that moment was pure solitude. I wondered if he sensed my heightened confidence when I permitted him to let go. Even so, with clouded thoughts, I circled and pedaled my way back to him.

Up to this date, I still don’t know if my dad was able to hear that moment I consider special. If I didn’t bother to ask, it didn’t cross my mind.

My 2018 was unlike any other. To compare, it feels as if I’m standing on an edge of a cliff, where one foot is stitched on the ground and the other stepped on air. I faced uncertainty as often as I possibly thought, and it has pushed me off guard. I think I’ve never prayed as much as I did for comfort. Anxiety crept in every passing day as I question my self-worth. Is it a mistake to wish for something immense? So immense that I daydreamt of its familiar taste. What made things worse was knowing it to be an arm-length reach ready for my grasp, but somehow has found its way out between my fingers’ crevices.

I murmured beneath every unease sigh that Papa would do something about my lingering desire. Silly of me to think that proximity would mean urgency. Papa could at least gently pinch God’s conscience to stabilize my unsteady breath. Like an immediate action, or a magical yes after all the weeks of waiting.  Is Papa’s gaze still pierced at something else? I find myself swallowing a familiar bolus of solitude. Before long, I choked as I took my courage to confront; did God turn a deaf ear on me as well?

Confrontation is such a divine gesture. It takes one’s cup brimming with apprehension to do so. It’s normal to be taken aback by interrogations we didn’t see coming. Yet, what’s worse is that we knew long before of the answer, but we deny it to ourselves; pretending it didn’t ever cross our mind.

“I’m meant for something greater.”

Across all the pulled strings and letting go of every ticking hand of the clock, I kept on pedaling. I was back as my gnawing 7-year-old self.

Papa, I know how to bike now,” I said. I found out he just ended a conversation with my mom. His low murmuring voice almost sounded identical to a sweet hum as if he was agreeing. Maybe he saw me. Maybe he knew that I already could even before he removed my training wheels. And maybe, 2018 was not a no for me. Instead of a not-now; or not just yet. Maybe I’m meant for something else, something greater this 2019.

 

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135 Comments

  1. Angela Mae Posadas
    Angela Mae Posadas

    When i was a child, i used to be afraid on being left alone in the house because I thought that if my mom leaves me, she doesn’t love me anymore. Until now I still have that feeling that I dont wanna be left alone inside the house. Aside from having the feeling that a ghost might come to me, i also dont wanna be away from my mom. This article shows the true self. It is because she describes herself based and from a feeling of aunthenticity or authentic experience.

  2. John Rey Dungca ACT 184
    When I was a child I am afraid of dolls, Until now I don’t like dolls because it gives me a feeling of they are getting me or like they are moving even if it is a non living thing and also I don’t like dolls because of some movies and I feel like they are here to kill me.
    This article shows true-self she based it on her own experience her true feelings and she based it on what she saw. and what she did.

  3. Based on my understanding of the article, the author was scared of facing the real world alone as she is already an adult and she needs somebody to help her solve the big question mark about herself. When I was young I used to be afraid of being apart from my parents because I was too dependent. But now, I just realized that as I grow older, I have to learn to do things on my own and so, I am learning on making decisions on my own but of course I still ask for their guidance. The article depicts the real self because the author described how was she when she was still young and also she explicitly told her fear.

    ACT183

  4. The author still needs someone for her to guide her throughout her journey because she is afraid to be alone. When I was a child, I am so afraid of dogs but today, I overcome my fear by having a dog. This is a true-self article for she described her own feelings based on her own experiences. -ACT185

  5. JUSTIN JAQUIAS ACT 183

    As a little kid I have fear to I fear that if I will go to bed alone some element will go and kill me, but I said to myself enough is enough this things should stop I overcome thoose things through the help of my GOD JESUS,with the name of my God nothing can hurt me.

    In the story the realself was describe when she said that 2018 wasn’t prepare for her and the idealself is shown at the first part when she said how magnificent the moment when she ride a bike

  6. When I was a child I am scared going to my bed alone for I thought that some element will kill me while I am sleeping but everything change when I encounter JESUS in my life for I know that my God shall never abandon me.

    The real self was shown when she accept that 2018 is not for her, and the imaginary self was shown when she describe the things regarding her past life.

  7. Camielle Brucal
    Camielle Brucal

    “Anxiety crept in every passing day as I question my self-worth. Is it a mistake to wish for something immense? So immense that I daydreamt of its familiar taste. What made things worse was knowing it to be an arm-length reach ready for my grasp, but somehow has found its way out between my fingers’ crevices.”

    I think the article depicts the Ideal Self because according to our topic, it gives rise to the third self, the “despised self” which is what we feel ourselves to be when we faul to live up to the unrealistic demands we make for ourselves. “The Actual Self” which is who we really are at any given time.

    When I was still young, I was really scared when me and my twin sister go to school everyday with our father driving us there. I was scared that my father won’t come back and drive us home, that they will forget to go to school until dark. Sometimes, my father would be late and my sister are the only one waiting in our school with the guard and I will just start crying. My sister was braver than me. She always comforts me and says that our father will come back to get us and I will just stop crying.

    When we got to junior high school, not to far away from our grade school, I thought that I will never be scared of waiting anymore, but boy I was wrong. It got worse. When I felt like he’s not coming, and there are only few students waiting there, I will chose not to wait and commute, but as if on cue, that’s when my father will arrive.

    Honestly, I don’t know if I’d ever overcome it. I still hate waiting. I realized that my father won’t ever forget to get us fron school, but what if it’s not my father? What if I kept waiting with no assurance that someone will come back? Will I still keep waiting or walk away alone? I just hope that someday I will come to that point that I overcome it and no longer be scared.

  8. Kissel Kate Chila D. Prado
    Kissel Kate Chila D. Prado

    In my own opinion, the author was scared of the idea that she had to face life all by herself in the near future. When I was a child, I used to have a fear of dogs since I experienced being chased by them. However, I tried to overcome it by exposing myself to dogs. Little by little, I was able to overcome it and now, we are raising a dog at home.

    The author, for me, is expressing her real self since she based her story from her own experiences and how she felt during those moments. It is a clear sign thay she actually is portraying her true self.

  9. For me, the author was scared of facing the world alone all by herself without the guidance of her parents. In relation to myself, I was afraid of being left behind by my mom. She always left me to my relatives because she needed to work for our daily living as a single mother. But what feared me the most was her leaving without coming back home again. I can say from the author’s experienced that she is showing her true self by being real and true to her feeling while expressing her thoughts and emotion.

  10. Ma. Alcyra Aira M. Santos
    ACT 184

    Somehow, I understand what the writer feels when she was writing the article. I think what the writer is trying to imply is that she is scared of being alone. She is scared of going out to her own comfort zone. The moment she realize that she can ride the bicycle on her own, she felt so proud of herself. But, as a normal individual, there will always come a time when we will doubt and question ourselves.

    Just like the writer, I also have fears when I was a child. I am afraid of ghosts and clowns. As of today, i’m still afraid to them and I don’t think i can overcome it anytime sooner. I’m also afraid with the idea of being alone and not being with my parents.

    The type of self that the writer portrayed is the REAL SELF. Everything that she said on the article was based on her personal experience. Also, the experience itself is a realistic dilemma that anyone in this world could encounter.

  11. The author is scared of being alone. When the time she realized that her papa is no longer with her, her anxiety arise. The article depicts true self because she shows her own feelings based on her experience.
    When I was I child, I was scared in the dark because I thought there’s something or someone who’s with me. I overcome this through the help of my parents and prayers.
    Grei-Anne Naron
    ACT-184

  12. Patricia Gwen Louise P. Ramos – ACT184

    As I read the short story, I noticed that the author was afraid of letting go and living life by herself or like facing the world as her own without her parents, more specifically her dad, to be there to guide her. She seems to be doubting herself if she will be capable of being out there independently.
    And that’s not unusual. It’s very normal to have fears. I, myself, used to be afraid of everyone’s disapproval. Even as a child, I hated it when people get disappointed in me or gets upset because of me. It was so unnerving for me that I used to have really bad nightmares about ut. When I was around 7-9years old, I would constantly have this dream of me being in a very dark room alone and faces of people important to me would start to appear around me and they would have these angry expressions on. This went on for sometime but eventually stopped. However, I still get these dream from time to time especially when I’m stressed.

    For me, the author was quite brave and was able to show her true self. Reading the story, I really felt her emotions and thoughts so I think she was genuinely showing her real self.

  13. Carmella Jane O. Caligan
    Carmella Jane O. Caligan

    I think the girl was afraid of losing her father’s grip as she will grow older each month. I think its portraiting a real self because of being real that she was scared to admit.
    When I was a child having a broken family at an early age thought me of being strong but I admit that there were one thing I am scared off and that is being left by someone I cared the most my grandmother but when I grow old I learned to accept the bitter truth that everyone has always a God’s perfect time and soon be with Him.

  14. The author was still not ready to face the reality and she’s seeking for guidance. Also, she’s afraid of being all alone and it shows her Ideal self.
    When I was a kid, I’m afraid of presenting in front of other people because I was afraid that I might fail or people will judge me. But as time flies, I learned to neglect what others may think of me and to do what I love to do.

  15. Jenny Sylvia Eustaquio
    Jenny Sylvia Eustaquio

    Being a child means being dependent to our parents. But as we grow up we face responsibilities that needs to be faced independently. I believe that the author is afraid of facing the real world without the guide of her parents especially her dad.
    With this article the thought of facing the future without my parents scares me. I feel like I am not ready for the responsibilities but I need to face it. Because time will come I will not have a choice but to continue life despite the challenges I experienced.

    ACT183

  16. Based on my understanding of the article, the author is afraid to be alone. When I was a kid I also have a fear on being left alone in the house but since I was growing up now, I overcome my fear by being independent now in a way that I can go now to my school with my self . This is a true-self article based on her own experiences.
    ACT185

  17. When I was a kid, I used to be afraid of meeting new people, even our other relatives, I just want to stay beside my mom, and now I realized that we should face everything. The article depicts her real self as she describe the events in her life.

  18. Elianar dela Pena
    Act 182

    When I was young I’m afraid everytime my mom left me in the house, when I am alone in the bed. And also I’m afraid everytime I didn’t tell to my parents where will I go or when I play outside. This article is true self because she shares her experience.

  19. Anne Klein Serrano
    Anne Klein Serrano

    Anne Klein Serrano
    ACT-182

    I think the author was afraid of being alone and step the real world.
    When I was young I was scared when Im just alone, I feel like there was someone presence and I’m also scared when waking up if I don’t have anyone around me or if I don’t see anyone in bed that I’m crying even sometimes until then I don’t overcome but slowly I overcome it by waking up early to see if someone is with me.
    I think the article is real self because she still can’t accept 2018 and she stated herself.

  20. Dianna Faye L. Cabungcal
    ACT-182

    The author used her real experience when she was still a child to compare her 2018 experiences. When she was still a child she is afraid to ride a bike because she doesn’t know how. On her 2018 experiences, there is also uncertainty. I guess the author is afraid to face things alone because she is used to have someone to accompany her. When I was young, I can clearly remember how scared I was to be left alone with my classmates in our classroom. It is kinda embarrassing but when I was Kindergarten, I am the only pupil who has her “nanny” at the back of the classroom. But as time goes by, I made friends and I was able to overcome that fear.

    The article depicts real self because the author narrated her real life experiences and her real feelings towards the happenings in her life.

  21. As I read the article, I noticed that the author is afraid of facing situations alone like riding a bike for the first time without her Dad. The world is so cruel to give experiences that doesn’t need to test ourselves. It is always been a battle between ourselves and our fear. Knowing our true identity. When I was a kid I’m afraid to try something new because I’m afraid to commit mistakes and be punished for that. But as I grow older I learned now that failure is first attempt in life, that’s why I became adventurous; always facing my fear. Lastly the article illustrate the real self of the author because it emphasized the true identity and fear of the author.

    ACT183

  22. I think the author was showing her real self because she was telling her own experience.
    When I was a kid, I always cried when my parents left me at school. Maybe because I was used to have them by my side that I became dependent on them. But now that I’m in college, I became more mature and independent. I believe it takes time before someone become fully independent. It takes time but it surely will come at the right time.

    ACT 183

  23. Kim Carlo de Villa
    Kim Carlo de Villa

    Act183
    For me, the author is afraid on doing things alone. She needs some guidance in every actions that she will commit. Just like me, when i was a child, i am afraid on doing things without the help of my father. I wanted that every time that i will go outside, my father is always beside me. The author shows her real self because it is based on her true feelings and experience.

  24. The one thing that the author was scared of than riding the bicycle was the idea of living her life independently without the guidance of her parents. Growing up, I was told by my parents that I should love and cherish everyone in our family. They’re always telling me how important it is to have a complete family. That’s why in a young age, one of my biggest fear is to lose one of my loved ones. Because for me, family is life. I can’t imagine a life without them. I wouldn’t be able to survive this life if it’s not because of them. There even comes a point that I’m willing to be selfless and sacrifice my life for them. That it’s okay if I’m the one who’s hurt, just not them. Family is the most precious thing that I ever have in this life. A kind of thing that if I lose, I am nothing. I am able to overcome this fear by praying to our Lord God. To always guide our ways and protect my family against harm and distress. By that, we’re able to live our lives peacefully.

    The article depicts the real self because it was based on her experience and started having that kind of perception in a young age. Until she grew up still able to discern what happened to her father.

  25. Ms. Yanna was scared to independently face the reality of the world without the guidance of her parents whom she used to be with.

    When I was young, I was afraid in darkness believing that there were ghosts or bad spirits that would haunt me. My mom tried to help me to overcome this fear when we started and used to sleep at night with lights off. Also, I did not exposed myself in watching horror movies.

    This article depicts real self because the author revealed what she genuinely felt and she based this article by her own experience not by her imaginative thoughts.

  26. Jesica Diana Dagsaan
    Jesica Diana Dagsaan

    ACT 183
    The author was afraid of doing things alone. She was dependant on her parent, thus, she needed the guidance of her parents before acting alone. When I was a kid, I always wanted my mother to be with me. I was afraid of losing something because I did something wrong. I was afraid that I might get lost in the way. I can’t act out without the help and confirmation of my parents because I value them and I am afraid that they might leave me for instance if I’m naughty.
    This article shows the real self because she was sharing part of herself, part of her childhood, which is based on her experience of coping up with situation.

  27. Yanna is afraid to stand in her own when she was a child. He depends on others for her to learn something new.

    When I was a child I am afraid to stand and speak in front of the crowd. Until ome day may teacher joined me in a contest thay have to speak in front of the crowd. I faced my fear and challenged my self and I successfuly won the 2nd place. I realized that the things that I thought I can’t do it is the things that made me strong and fearless.

    The story depicts the real self because it was based on the authors real life experiences.

    ACT 181

  28. Being alone is really scary. Maybe the author is scared about her future without her father.
    When I was a child I was scared too. Maybe it was kind of petty but my fear of swimming really drove some of my playmates away. I remember when my family was in a outing in a nearby resort. My cousin asked me to ride his back while he tries to swim in the deepest part of the pool. I was scared but I tried to hold back that fear. Unfortunately, I almost drowned when we reached the middle part of the pool so my cousin wet back to the shallow parts immediately. I think overcoming your fears means that you must be ready to face it without any regrets, without any hesitations. Sometimes it would only be possible if someone is there by your side.
    I think the article would depict the author’s real self a reason why she realized how scary the world can be without a father.

  29. Other than riding A bicycle, I think the persona is also afraid of moving forward without the aid of anyone. For her it was like taking a leap of faith and it causes her anxiety. But just like riding a bike she has to make it through by feeling happiness or excitement over her fear. When I was younger I was afraid of not being home for a long time (whenever we are on vacation). If I am gonna be somewhere else not home, I would really have a hard time falling asleep because there are a lot of bad things that I am thinking of regarding the place I am in.

    I think that this article depicts the real self because she dealt with her anxiety genuinely. She was not trying to be anyone who could be more stronger, she was just being herself. However, she knows she’ll be greater and i think by that she meant only better but not actually perfect.

  30. Keannah Solitario
    Keannah Solitario

    ACT 185
    Aside from being afraid to ride a bicycle, the author was also afraid to face her journey being an adult alone. She is afraid of discovering more about her true self. She finds someone who could help her understand the meaning of life.
    When I was a child, I am extremely afraid of darkness. I cry when I am being left alone but now that I’ve grown up I am more independent. The article shows true self because the author describes her real experiences in life.

  31. Krystel Gabriel, ACT 181. Just like the kid in the article, i was also afraid of growing up alone, make decisions independently, commit mistakes and such. But then, as I grew up I realized that it is a need for us to learn how to be independent, be not afraid to commit mistakes as it will teach us a lesson. This article shows a true self since it speaks about authenticity and real experience.

  32. ACT 186 JENTZEN YAP /
    She shares her experience of her fears that she wanted to overcome it and working on it to be a better person
    When I was young I was afraid of many things in this world and I won’t be shy or I won’t hesitate to ask for help if I’m scared because I expreienced it when I was young that I am afraid of imagining demons and ghosts or even in real life like creepy stuff toys and etc. So I asked for help to God and I’m comfortable as I grow up that no one can touch me if I’m with God.

  33. Based on the article that I’ve read the author is afraid of facing the real world behind her and she wants a person to support her all the time. Back when I was a child I was afraid on being left alone I always want somebody to be there for me all the time and I don’t want to be left out because I always thought that they will never cameback again, I overcome that fear by gently accepting that there are no permanent here in the world and I need to be independent for my own sake.

    Yumi Nakaniwa
    Act 182

  34. ACT184
    We all have our own fears but it is for us to overcome it. I believe that the author is scared of being alone because it would feel like there’s no one to take a look for her. she is afraid to lose sight of anyone just to make sure that she will be okay. I also do have my own fears. I’m really scared of puppies and kittens, funny right? I’m also scared of getting inside a hospital, may because i feel really uncomfortable. To be honest, puppies and kittens are cute and not known to be someone’s phobia but most person’s favorite. i always have goosebumps everytime I see them or even get near them aside from my very first puppy named hershey. she’s a shih tzu. Maybe she was the reason why I learned to calm down for seeing puppies but not for kittens. kittens are my worst enemies, not totally enemies but i can’t overcome my fear of kittens.
    I believe that the author states her real self because our real self can be define when we feel anxious. In our real world, our real self experience trials we need to face, fears we need to overcome, problems we need to solve and others. the author is simply being realistic by teling us she don’t want to feel alone.

  35. Based on the article that I’ve read the author is afraid of facing the real world behind her and she wants a person to support her all the time. Back when I was a child I was afraid on being left alone I always want somebody to be there for me all the time and I don’t want to be left out because I always thought that they will never cameback again, I overcome that fear by gently accepting that there are no permanent here in the world and I need to be independent for my own sake.

    This article shows true self because it was based on her own experience and she describes her feelings in an authentic way. The feeling of being alive, unique and personal center of ourselves is there.

    Yumi Nakaniwa
    Act 182

  36. Maria Kiela Vince E. Nocito
    Maria Kiela Vince E. Nocito

    I think that the author was scared of losing his father besides of riding her bike and she was also scared of being alone even though she is old enough to stand by herself . When I was a child I was scared of thinking that the world has come to an end. There were news that time that the world will end and I think that was last 2012. I was keep on dreaming about the planets that was revolving around our house and I kept on thinking of a way on how to survive. I overcome this fear by keep praying and trust God on whatever He wants to do with us or let Him take our life back.

  37. Princess Leah Banoy
    Princess Leah Banoy

    Princess Leah Banoy ACT 184
    In life, there are really times when we are looking for confirmation of something. We are wanting to hear the words we want to hear. We are asking questions even though we already knew the answers, just for assurance, just for a verification, maybe to relieve ourselves and at some point boost our confidence and feel admired. We all love compliments from the success we had, and sharing this to other people, especially those we love is one thing we feel like we must do. But when we do so, what we are expecting them to feel is not what we see, and so we ended up feeling down and hurt. And I guess that is what agonizing the author’s mind, that feeling of not being special, appreciated and valued.
    I remembered, when I was in grade 8, I was awarded as the 3rd honor of our batch, something that even I, myself didnt see happening, so I feel like it is such a big success to share with, and so I hurriedly told my mom with full excitement and anticipation to what she will say. But this excitement turned into a disappoinment. For she says nothing, no congratulations, no smile at her face, not even a thing. I even wonder if she heard it or not, and pleasing myself to believe that maybe she didnt. And honestly, up until now, there is this pierce in my heart that feels like I am worthless, and all these hardworks were nothing. And this did cause anxiety to me.
    Just like the author, I was somewhat being me and at the same time my ideal self, which is to be adored by everyone, to be accepted, to be cherished and to be praised for everything I am doing, and if not, I’m gonna label myself as nothing. But this anxiety must be faced, and the only key is your self. Confronting the truth is not easy, especially because truth hurts, but then again, I know that it is better to face the truth then live your life, than to live your life with lies or with what you only wants to believe. So now, eventhough that event in my life already once shattered my heart, I still want to believe that maybe, that time is not the time to feel special, and that my mom is proud of me regardless of these achievements. I also learned to accept the fact that not everyone will be happy or explicitly show they’re proud to what you achieve or where you are now. This just simply prepared me to see more expected people to care for me, and yet they’re not showing or doing it. Silence could really be something, it could be really open to different interpretations that can make us all anxious. But one thing is for sure, I know that during that time my mom is very proud of me and she is delighted for where I am now, and will be more happy to where i will be in the future. She may had not showed it before, but because she is my mother, I know and I am sure. 🙂

  38. Based on the article that I’ve read the author is afraid of facing the real world behind her and she wants a person to support her all the time. Back when I was a child I was afraid on being left alone I always want somebody to be there for me all the time and I don’t want to be left out because I always thought that they will never cameback again, I overcome that fear by gently accepting that there are no permanent here in the world and I need to be independent for my own sake.

    This article shows true self because it was based on her own experience and she describes her feelings in an authentic way. The feeling of being alive, unique and personal center of ourselves is there.

  39. AREVALO, KEYCIE ANN S.
    ACT- 182

    I think the author is scared/afraid to be alone. She needs a companion throughout her journey. When I was a child, I am so afraid to clowns. Whenever I saw their face, I automatical cried a lot and hide on my mother’s back. Somehow, I overcome this fear now by thinking that they are just like us. A normal people who has a make up in face. This is a true self article because she described her own experiences based on her feelings.

  40. John Kenneth Puente
    John Kenneth Puente

    John Kenneth Puente
    ACT184

    In my own opinion, the author is scared for facing the challenges in the near future without any help especially with her father. When I was young, I’m afraid for being alone in our house because I think that no one loves me or they don’t care about me. But now, those thing is just symbolize that I need to face my problems by myself without help of someone. And I overcome it by thinking that I’m not alone because I believe that someone is watching me and guide me and that is our god. The article shows the true self because she described her self based on her true experienced.

  41. AREVALO, KEYCIE ANN S.
    ACT- 182

    I think the author is scared/afraid to be alone. She needs a companion throughout her journey. When I was a child, I am so afraid to clowns. Whenever I saw their face, I automatical cried a lot and hide on my mother’s back. Somehow, I overcome this fear now by thinking that they are just like us. A normal people who has a make up in face. This is a true self article because she described her own experiences based on her feelings.

  42. Her anxiety arises after she realized that she is no longer guided by someone. Base on my analization and understanding, the author is still afraid of living her life alone. She is afraid of doing things by herself because she thinks that she still needs someone to guide her to her journey.

    When I has a child I am afraid of the dark. I don’t let my parents turn off the lights at night because my mind will start to imagine silly things like monsters, ghosts, and other creatures. Growing up I realized that dark is something we can overcome. What I did every time we sleep with lights off is to pray, I pray for guidance and redemption from any evil thoughts. And so, up until now dark never bothers me anymore.

    The article depicts real self because she is narrating what she feels and what is happening to her as well as her experiences. She may not use direct description but it can be felt from the way she writes her article.

    SHAINA MAE C. ELNAR
    ACT182

  43. ACT 186 – When I was young, I am afraid of rats. Any kind of rat alike animals. Whether it is a rabbit, hamster or what. I don’t know why I am afraid of them. Whenever I see those kind of animals, I really don’t know what to do. Sometimes, my hands are shaking. I get nervous until I cry. Up until now, I am still afraid of them.
    This article shows a real self. Because the way she tell her experience through this article, she also tells what she really feels.

  44. Justin James Siazon
    Justin James Siazon

    In my opinion, the Author was scared to be alone, she needs somebody (like her Dad) to be always with, to guide her, to always have validations in her doings. When I was a Child I’m scared to my Lolo because when we visit to His house, He’s always anger to His Sons(My Dad and my Uncle) that I don’t know why, and me, I’m scared too because i don’t like that kind of personality. But when I’m growing, i understood that when you’re old, there comes a time that you will experience that too. Understood that they need love and presence of His Sons, His love ones. But then going back to the article, this is true self for sharing the author of her experienced when she was a Child.

  45. The author still needs someone to be with her. When I was a child I am afraid with blood, but when I grow I little by little I overcome my fears. This is a real self because it is her own feelings and experiences.

    Act 186

  46. The author still needs someone to be with her. When I was a child I am afraid with blood, but when I grow I little by little I overcome my fears. This is a real self because it is her own feelings and experiences.

    Act 186.

  47. Dela Rosa, Ashley Nhicollete G.
    ACT184

    When I was a kid, I am afraid of being alone just like the author. I think she is afraid of doing something that will judge her by doing in her own. And that’s exactly me. I’m afraid to do something by myself thinking that other people will judge me. But the times goes by, I realized that doing on your own is the best thing. Why? because other people seem to be proud of you that you can do it alone. By self realization you will think deeply about your experiences, so that you’ll come up to that realization. The article shows the real self by being real and true about her experiences and feelings.

  48. JOSE BERMUDEZ ACT182
    The author need someone along her journey. She needed someone to guide her. When i was a kid i always wait for my mom to pick me up from school, so i always wait for hours. Because i’m to afraid of going home by myself. Even if it takes up to 6pm to wait for her, just to pick me up

    REAL SELF, because she stated the story from her real experience and exactly what was the conflict on that time.

  49. The author was still in fear and she’s not still ready to become independent on her own. She was scared and it shows her ideal self. Sometimes, we used to be independent to other people, but as the time goes by, it is important that we should learn to do things independently.

  50. Kiara Nicole Llanes – ACT184

    According to the article, Yanna was afraid of being alone aside for bikes. Just like my own experience back then when I was a child, I used to be so afraid of the drums’ sounds (drums whose too loud like use for fiestas). Whenever I heard the drums from a far, I would nearly felt butterfly in my stomach as in literally my stomach were turning into something cannot be explain and my young self would cry in heavy tears, cover my ears and go to a place where I cant hear any sounds coming from the drums. While I was growing, I realized drum is not something I should be afraid of because drums brings butterfly to the stomach of other people in a good way and finally I can able to conquer it and enjoy it as well.

    For me the article depicts real self because she does experienced it and was able to conquer some of her fear though with the help of other people but still the important part is she was able to conquer it.

  51. Fatima Mae Mendoza
    Fatima Mae Mendoza

    ACT 185
    The author was afraid of being alone, that afraid of reality that when time comes she will face her real world alone she was not a independent person she was depending on her parents.
    The article depicts was Ideal Self because in the end she learn to balance her self riding on the bike which is ideal self state that people develop an idealized image of themselves. The possible self can be impossible in ideal self.

    Since was on grade school was so afraid on talking in front of our class, Every time that we have a presentation individually like speech poem I was so speechless. I don’t want to be the first one to called to present and when I present I use to look down and I feel my palm sweetening and I was shaking.

    When I was on high school the stage fright was worsened. Almost of our subject we are required to report, every time that we are reporting i recommend my self to do the visual aids or the power points to use in reporting to lessen my part of discussing in front I don’t have confident talking in front.

    But when I was on senior high school my teacher notice that I was just on the corner and so shy to make eye to eye contact. So when the SSG or the Supreme Student Government election start, I fond out that my teacher volunteering me as one of the representative of the President of SSG. I don’t know how to handle my fear how I stand and represent my self, I can not object to remove my name. My teacher talk to me that she already know that I was scared to of many people that why’s she do that, for me to learn and removed and frightened and she was believing that I can be a good leader. That was so pressure she believing on me. So, I trust my self that I can do this and I just believing to my self. So I started doing platforms and campaign for our team. When the election comes I was so nervous, so I prefer to go home and find the result the next day and during the flag ceremony the name of the ssg representative was called and I found out I was chosen to be a president but so sad that almost of our team was that chosen, and I don’t know if I’ll be happy or what because being president was so very busy and responsible of all things specially president is more on talking in front.

    I accept the challenge that was given to from the start it was so challenge for but the time was comes, It was spontaneity accepted. I learn to stand by my self in front I overcome my fear. That was a training for me that why’s when the defense of our research paper it was not a so fearful like i feel before. I was so thankful to my teacher who believe that I can. There are some part of me that fear me so, but i was lessen,.

  52. Luigi V. Cruz
    ACT 184
    When I was a kid, I’m afraid of ghost ever since because that time me, my siblings and my cousins are always watching horror films together and after that at night, we will turn of all the lights and we will scare each other. So when I’am alone I’am scared of ghost because I think and imagine what we watched. The article above shows a True self, because the author did based on his/her true experience and feelings.

  53. “It’s normal to be taken aback by interrogations we didn’t see coming. Yet, what’s worse is that we knew long before of the answer, but we deny it to ourselves; pretending it didn’t ever cross our mind.” The author close her mind in the reality , thus she pampered her self by believing in fairytale life. All the answers she need is already given yet she hesitated to give an attention to put an action to it . This depicts real self because she stated about her experience as a child and what she is now.

  54. The most thing I am afraid of even these days…is to get in contact or go near a frog. I don’t know why but frogs really set me up into uncomfortable feelings, probably because when I was a child, I was sitting on the couch and suddenly a frog hopped on my foot and I was really scared that time. Based on what I read, I can say that it is based on her true self because she based it on what she experienced, saw and encountered.

  55. ACT 181

    The author needs someone for her to guide her throughout the journey because shes afraid to be alone. When I was a child, I am so afraid of with being in front of the people speaking, but today with the help of the people surrounds me I overcome it. This is a true-self article for she described her own feelings based on her feelings and experiences.

  56. Mary Erica G. Gregorio
    Mary Erica G. Gregorio

    Mary Erica Gregorio | ACT184 Based on the blog that I read, I think the author is afraid to be alone that in her journey she needs her parents or someone who will guide her through her decisions or every aspect in life. When I was a kid, I am scared of everyone’s opinion about me but as time and age passed by I learned that everyone will say something about you but it is in yourself if you will get affected or not, I learned to accept my flaws and imperfections because I am a human too and I am not perfect.
    The author portrayed a true self blog because she expressed her own feelings based on her experience in real life.

  57. I think Yanna is also afraid of being of being left behind. And me as a child, I’ve always wanted to be with my mother. Everywhere she goes i always want to be with her. But as i grow up I realized that nothing is permanent in this world, i must be independent and learn to live my life with my own decision.

    I think this story, is a concept of Yanna’s Ideal self. Because she was pursuing something that somehow very far from herself.
    ACT181

  58. Marilou Mae Amparo
    ACT183
    I think Yanna was afraid to explore the reality alone. She was afraid to do things without a guidance of her father. When I was young I am scared to recite in class, and I overcome it by challengeing myself to accept that I am wrong.
    The article deicts the real self, because the author state what she really are without sugarcoating her personality.

  59. Shiela Mae Camagan
    Shiela Mae Camagan

    ACT186 —-

    Other than riding a bicycle, I think the author is also scared of the thought that she will be facing her future alone. Back when I was a child, I’m really scared of interacting with other people because I’am a really shy kid and I’m scared of the thought that could harm and hurt me. And when I reach out high school, I meet a lot of people and that’s when I realize that there are still people who will be there by your side through ups and downs. Because I became more vocal of my opinions and feelings, I made a lot of friends, and I’ve faced my greatest fear in life.

    I think at first she was depicting her Ideal Self since you will observe that she has the courage to try new thing and more of the world but inside her, her Real Self, shows that she is scared of what could happen next in her life, facing it alone, and nobody by her side.

  60. ACT-184

    In my opinion, the author’s not just afraid of riding a bicycle but she’s also afraid of facing the world alone. She wanted to feel that she’s not alone. That in every steps she take, there’s someone who is always at her side. In my case, when I was young, I’m really afraid of being left alone. I want somebody in my side who can accompany me. I can’t go anywhere if I do not have someone to go to a place with. But now, I can say that I improved, I became independent especially when my college life began. I now able to travel alone. I now able to be happy even there’s nobody with me. For me, the author shows her true self because she clearly stated her own experience and she expressed her own feelings.

  61. Bernadette Palermo
    Bernadette Palermo

    Palermo, Ma. Bernadette M.
    ACT 185

    In my own perspectives, the author was afraid of facing the realities as an adult without someone who is guiding her along her journey. When I was a kid, I used to be afraid of riding an airplane because I really hate heights and I feel like it will crashed if ever. But not until when my whole family went to our province and I had no choice but to go with them. Along our journey, I enjoyed the city lights in Manila from the Airplane, I was so happy to see the dazzling beauty that I used to be afraid of.

    For me, the article depicts her Real Self because the author describes her own experiences and feeling at that moment. Thus, she portrays her true self.

  62. Based on what I have read, I think that the author is still a young girl in her heart. A girl who need someone to guide her and hold her hand whenever she will do something new. Someone who is not ready to be alone and independent.

    I may say that I am a person full of fears. Growing up with high expectation from my parents, I am scared of failing and disappointing them. I always do my best on everything that I do. However, as time goes by, I realized that it was not the results that matters. It is about the learnings that I have get on things that I do and I should just enjoy everything. I am also afraid of sea. Back when I was a kid, I experienced being drowned as my father loss his grip on me. I managed to overcome it when I had swimming lesson. Lastly, I am really afraid of ghost. Whenever I am alone, I imagined that someone is looking at me or there is someone out there followinh me. I can say that I managed to overcome it somehow. I still feel it somethimes though. I think being independent and living in a dormitory alone made me stronger and forgot those things.

    I think that this article shows the “real self” since the attitude and the feelings of the author was affected by the situation she was in.

    Mary Rose Salut
    ACT186

  63. Angelica Suarez
    Angelica Suarez

    ACT182
    I think Yanna, the author of this article, was also scared of being alone other than riding the bicycle. She wants her father to guide her through her route because she was not used to being left alone but when years past, she knew to herself that she can do it now alone. When I was young, I was also scared of being left alone by my mother. I overcome it by accepting the truth that in the end, you only need is yourself. Accept the fact that everyone will not stay by your side. You need to stand on your own feet. But until now, I am still looking for the guidance of my parents. I was also scared of the dogs and I overcome it by having a dog.

    In my opinion, the article depicts Real Self because the author freely expresses her own feelings and thoughts. She also told about her moments and experiences. Self-realizing people know what they really think, feel and believe. As we can read from the article, she was showing her true self. It describes a sense of self based on spontaneous authentic experience, and a feeling of being alive, having real self.

  64. Krishia Joy Delarmente
    Krishia Joy Delarmente

    Act185. I think she is afraid of the reality. She can’t face it without the help of her dad or her family. When I was young I was afraid of ghost (sadako) because I thought she would take me away from my family and her looks is really scary. But today I’m no longer afraid to them because since I was kid I used to watched lots of horror movies in able to overcome my fear.

  65. For me, the author was scared or afraid to be alone or left behind.
    When I was young, I’m afraid of heights but there are times today that I still feel this kind of feeling. I able to overcome this situation by facing my own fear and had a good feeling that the things I used to be afraid of to try are slowly overcoming by means of doing it by myself.
    The article depicts the real self because she expressed what she felt and she believes that even though the past is not good for her there is a right time that good things will happen soon.

    -ACT185

  66. After reading the article, I think the author is afraid of being alone. She was too dependent on her father. Solitude makes her lonely. And apparently, for some reasons, I can see my young self on her.

    When I was small, and we moved into a house in a bigger and nicer neighborhood, I asked my parents to make noise each night after they put me to bed. See, I needed confirmation that they were still there. And sometimes, if I couldn’t hear them, I’d listen for the voices on the TV. And sometimes, if those couldn’t reach me, I’d yell “Mama!” all panicky and garbled, waiting, waiting for the patient, calming, seemingly life-saving “Ano ‘yon, anak?” that drove all the nausea away. While I strove to be independent, my body would not agree. Alone was not a word that came easily to me. But now I learned to be fully independent. My mother always reminds me to pray and be dependent to God. I am not afraid of being alone. The quiet comforts me. I would rather hear silence than the rumbling of a crowd. I am not afraid to let my life follow its own path and direction, rather than have the world write it for me.

    I just want to commend the author for showing her real self. She didn’t attempt to conceal her true identity from others.

    MERCADO, Sheilla Mae O.
    ACT182

  67. ACT182

    Besides from riding bike, Yanna was also afraid of living her life alone. She still relies on her parent’s advices and decisions. She still needs their guidance and support. I think, she also still lets her fear dictate her choices and depend too much on her parent’s approval. She’s afraid of change, in terms of living her life. Being independent for her is so different from what she’s used to.

    When I was a child, I used to be afraid of darkness and sleeping alone. Every night, I couldn’t sleep without my mom beside me because without her, I feel unsafe and I feel that someone like ghosts and monsters will get me. As I grow up, I am also learning to overcome my fear. I learned to sleep alone. I learned from my mom that I should not be scared in darkness and being alone because God is always there to protect and guide me, all I need to do is to pray.

    I think, the article depicts the Real Self of the author because she clearly narrated and told us her own experiences and true feelings when she was a child and up until now.

  68. Macnell Joseph Panlaqui
    Macnell Joseph Panlaqui

    The other thing that the author was afraid of is living by herself alone. When i was a child i am afraid of watching horror movies alone because i think the ghost from the movie will come out from the tv.
    The article depicts real self because she describe herself from her feelings and experiences.
    ACT 184

  69. Jeryleen C. Villas ACT182 –
    The blog was really nice and deep, though it somehow depicts or trying to show positivity I can also see a bit of the author’s fear. The fear of her facing an entirely different world without her father or maybe her family behind her back to keep on pushing her and guiding her. On my own perspective, Ms. Yanna is showing an ideal self of her which is very triumphant and confident on her own feet, keeping the real her who is really a loving daughter who loves to share her victories with his father. I myself used to be a courageous little girl who was very seldom to get afraid of, but one thing has always givung me chills up until now and that is to lose my parents right before I will be able to make them proud. I know that we are all about to leave this world but the only thing I’m wishing is that may our creator let me guve back everything to my parents before they rest.

  70. In the article, other than riding the bicycle, Yanna (the author), was scared of doing something by herself alone. She was weighing if she could do it or she would fail. It was like discovering the unknown for her, everything was so foreign. With this, she was capable of knowing herself more, as she challenged her capabilities through risking it. She was just afraid that no one saw how she managed to do it without someone’s help. But, the only thing that matters for her before was that someone actually would believe her. It was a good thing that she quickly recognized as to on what extent her capabilities could lead her. In the end, she let her feelings guide her in an honest way. Moreover, I could say that she was so brave to challenge herself at a young age, which only shows how she learned from her experience and what she did to be a better person without removing her true self.

    Furthermore, with its title “My 2018 Transcendence” which means experience beyond the normal or physical level, it is more likely meant being greater, being greater in a sense that, she was not being someone else to get the approval of others, but rather being greater as to overcoming her fear. Also, that experience motivated her to become who she was today. Lastly, I believe that, no one else knows how we perceive, because we are the best experts of ourselves. We know a lot about ourselves, more than anybody.

    When I was young, I was afraid of getting outside our house. Years ago, I was a victim of bullying at school and by those children I used to play with in the neighborhood. It was because of my physical appearance. There were instances that they would call me names which my younger self hated. It was so boring. Growing up without friends made me play with my sister or my toys alone. It was like our home was just my safe place and I am good with it. But years later, when I was in 5th grade, everything became different. I had gained friends and my social life became better than before. I have learned that, others’ opinions do not matter at all. Also, I was motivated to prove them wrong about their perceptions about me, by not changing myself for them but being better for myself.

    I think this article depicts Real Self, because for me, the author followed and believed what she wants, what she is capable of, and what behavior she truly possesses. It was just that she was disappointed that no one noticed her. She did it for the very first time not just to impress her father but to prove herself something quite worth appreciated. The author said on the last part that “And maybe, 2018 was not a no for me. Instead of a not-now; or not just yet. Maybe I’m meant for something else, something greater this 2019.” This just shows how she is now open to every possibility that might come to her this year because she is now the greatest version of her Real Self.
    -ACT 185 Ma. Faith Esquida

  71. ACUZAR, JOYCE C.
    ACT184

    Aside from being scared of riding the bicycle, I think the author is also afraid of being alone. She is afraid and not yet ready to face the reality alone. Maybe she thinks that she is not strong enough or good enough to stand on her own feet. She still needs the guidance and assistance of her father in her life’s journey. In my case, I get anxious about travelling alone especially to strange places. Before, I lacked the confidence to travel alone because I truly don’t enjoy solo travel. But when I chose to study here in Manila, my parents told me that I should learn to travel by myself. At first I thought I can’t overcome this fear but it made me realized that I’m stronger than I thought I was. For me the article depicts her real self because it is based on her own experience and own feelings. It is about how she thinks and how she feels.

  72. Galera, Peachy C.
    ACT 182

    The author is basically afraid of riding a bike alone. In connection to the real life, the author I think is too dependent on the people that surrounds her. She is afraid that the people that she actually rely on will suddenly lost. So in short, the author is afraid of being alone.

    Ever since I was a child, I have this attitude of being nervous and afraid in heights and stage performing. I hate it when I see many people in front of me. Because I feel that they will only judge me and they will keep on laughing everytime I failed in a certain task. But look at me now. I am now stronger to face everything. Luckily that I am talented. I can now show to everyone what I’ve got. I am not now afraid to ride any rides in an amusement park regardless how high it is.

    The blog is about Real Self. Because she was able to showcase what are the other talent of hers. She was able to show it without any pressure. She overcome her fears in life and now she can totally say that she was brave enough to face it.

  73. Hanna Jane Padua
    Hanna Jane Padua

    Upon reading the blog “My 2018- Transcendence” by Yanna, I think what she is afraid of more than riding a bicycle is facing the reality alone. As her father let her go while riding the bicycle I think it means that she has to be independent and face the real world. When I was a child like Yanna I am afraid of being alone. I always want to be with my grandma and grandpa. I am afraid that one day they will leave me. I was too dependent with them because I grew up with them.
    I believe the article depicts her real self because it describes her own experience. It is what she really feel and what she really been through.

    Padua, Hanna Jane B.
    ACT185

  74. Act-182. When i was a child i’m afraid to the people that i do not know but my family knows them. second is that i’m afraid to leave alone in the house because i will think that something might happen. this articles shows the ideal self of you that based on your experienced in life.

  75. Jamaica Bonifacio ACT186

    In my own understanding, the author is afraid of being an adult facing the real world without any company. She feels alone. Like when i was child, I am afraid whenever my parents leave me in the house of my Lola. I always cry because I am thinking that time that they will never get me back.
    In this article, the author confidently described her true self. She wrote all her experiences whole-heartedly.

  76. The author is afraid of facing her journey alone. When I’m still a child, I am always afraid of being alone and doing everything without the help of other people. But as the years passed by, I learn how to depend on my own skills in facing all the challenges in my life.

    The article depicts real self because the author shows her real feelings and true emotions.

  77. ACT186

    Based on what I understand, I think the author was too scared to face the reality with herself only, she’s too scared to move forward without others help, she needs guidance everytime because she’s scared that she might fail upon facing the reality. When I was a child, I’m too scared to do things on my own because I’m too weak. I’m scared that other people may judge me on what I’m doing, I don’t want to be shouted by other people. That’s my childhood fear.

    The author is presenting her real self, because she faced her feels on her own because she admits her fears and faced it on her own.ACT186

    Based on what I understand, I think the author was too scared to face the reality with herself only, she’s too scared to move forward without others help, she needs guidance everytime because she’s scared that she might fail upon facing the reality. When I was a child, I’m too scared to do things on my own because I’m too weak. I’m scared that other people may judge me on what I’m doing, I don’t want to be shouted by other people. That’s my childhood fear.

    The author is presenting her real self, because she faced her feels on her own because she admits her fears and faced it on her own.

  78. ACT186
    Based on what I have understood, the author is afraid of being alone without the supervision and guidance of his father. She is frightened of what the real world has. Relating it to my experience way back, I was afraid of being left alone in our house. On that instance, I was imagining that there were ghosts in our house that will eat me.
    The article shows depicting the real self of the author because she used her own experiences and feelings about a part of her life.

  79. Clarisse Salipot
    Clarisse Salipot

    She is afraid of facing the world alone without her parents. She is showing her real self because she is being true to herself. I am afraid of my parents leaving me not until I become successful.

  80. Erika Yvette Lopez
    Erika Yvette Lopez

    Besides riding bicycle, the author is afraid of being all by herself or being alone. She was scared of stepping another step forward without any guidance. She was scared of facing reality all by herself and no one will ever help her, in case she needs one. In my younger years, I was scared of embarrassment, I was scared of doing things and not achieving my goal and all the people around me are expecting so much. In the past years, I grew and I still am scared of embarrassment but I somehow manage sometimes. It’s not like any other days back then. I’ve learned to take some risks even if I failed and get embarrassed. I’ve learned that it’s just a matter of perception, I just need to be positive. That every failure I faced, I get life lessons that I can bring in my journey.

    The author is presenting her real self, because she was not scared of telling her true emotions. She showed her real feelings and that makes it like she’s showing her true self. She also mentioned experieces that only a real self can have.

    LOPEZ, ERIKA YVETTE B.
    ACT184

  81. ACT 182 – The article is showing a true self. I believe that no one in this world were born to live alone. We all need company , a someone that can guide us through everything. Even the wisest man was once a dumb. The author tells how we are not ready to face every tomorrow but we face it anyways. When I was a kid , I was always afraid in the dark because I believe there is always a monster in the dark but when I grew up , that fear fade away and another fear comes in me. Those fears are always around us but with the people around us , the wisdom and experience we collect we learn to face all of that. Fear is certain even in present.

  82. Andrea Fernandez
    Andrea Fernandez

    ANDREA FERNANDEZ ACT184
    Facing uncertainty and grasping to the unknown depict the fear of the author. Every time we move to another phase of our lives, somehow, bring fear and anxiety to us as it demands another version of us and heightened the independency we need.
    When I was in a Kindergarten, I am so afraid of the idea of going to school and my mom can’t be there beside me. Every time my mom needs to go home after escorting me in my room, I will cry because of the fear of being left behind. When I looked back to it, I pity and I am proud to myself at the same time. Pity because I was so innocent, vulnerable, and dependent way back then but I am also proud of myself because even though I am so afraid, I still surpassed it. Sometimes, we need to let go all our doubts and hesitations. Fear are just there to stop us and limit our capability. We need to be brave, and when we say brave, it doesn’t mean not being afraid but it is being afraid but still doing it as best as you can.
    The author depicts the real self as she tells her real experience and feelings.

  83. Ryan Dave Biron
    Ryan Dave Biron

    Ryan Dave Biron ACT186

    We all have a desire to live our life together with our family. According to the author she has afraid in being alone. She is afraid without the guidance of her parents to face the reality. In connection with this, Just like i was young I’m afraid of that my parent leave because of the work I feel I was nothing. But I considered my self from that as a strong and have confidence in myself.

  84. Plaza, Audrey O.
    Plaza, Audrey O.

    ACT 185

    Based on my own understanding, other than riding the bicycle, the author is scared of doing things on her own because of anxiety. Like Yanna, when I was young, I was also scared of everything because of this so-called ‘anxiety’ surrounding me. Up to now, I can’t say that I did overcome it. All I can tell is that I’ve improved as a person, doing almost all things on my own.

    For me, the article depicts the Real Self. This is because Yanna told some events on her life based on her own experiences, including how she felt that time.

  85. Act185

    I think the author was afraid of being alone and step forward in the real world without guidance of everyone specially her father.

    When I was a child I’m also afraid of losing my grandmother and grandfather because they are the only person that teach me everything that I need to learn when I was a child like the author, I don’t want to be alone anymore. I just need a guidance from my grandmother and grandfather but when they are died I think the person who give me a guidance now is my bother and sisters and also my girlfriend. The person who are always in my side even if I have a problem.

  86. Aside from riding a bicycle, I feel like Yanna is afraid of not being worthy or not being good enough. I honestly were and still afraid of birds, even those that are small… funny but true. I have not overcome my fear yet, and I think I will not be able to. This article depicts real self because she described what she really felt.

    ACT183

  87. Based on the article, the author was not yet confidently ready to face the real world by his/her own feet because of having a fear to take responsibilities which is the author is liable of it. Still seeking for the guidance. When I was a child I was afraid going to dark places. It seems like there’s someone looking and following me. This article expressed real self. The way of an author narrates his raw emotions on the things have been experienced.

    Shaivie Rose Javier
    ACT184

  88. Corona, Darren Joy B. – ACT 181

    Maybe the author was afraid of being left. She was too dependent to her parents especially to her father that it scares her the fact that she’s adult now and no one’s guiding her by her side. She’s scared that there’s no one who can notice her achievements. When I was young, I was also afraid that my parents will left me. I’m afraid to make them disappointed with everything I do that’s why I grew up obeying what they told me I should do so. I realized that they only want what’s best for me and up until now, I’m still afraid to fail them. The author narrates her real-self because she expressed what she felt and realizes what she was afraid of.

  89. Cyrille Ann Dappit
    ACT 184

    Each person have their own difficulties and things to be afraid of, but Yanna the author is so fascinating because other than of being afraid on riding a bicycle, she is also afraid on the reality. Reality of her surroundings that suffocates her. Wondering that she’s happy and got everything but when she open her eyes and see what’s true she got nothing. She’s afraid to play the game of reality that she wants to dream all day just to find her self happy and complete.

    In my younger years I am afraid of being left again because I know that all of them will leave me. I became scared of it because first my mom leaved me, next is my dad and lastly is my lolo, it was just hurt me that I can see everyone leave. My mom left me to work in abroad, my dad left me because of other woman and my lolo just left us to be with papa God. I cope up with this problem by the help of the person who cheat and play me. Since that person give me a lesson that no one will stay because everyone change and there will be a situation that they need to leave u. That person gives me a way to understand and realize what reality is because that person who I treasured, leaved me and leave a scar. Now I understand their sides and give them a chance to explain themselves.

    This article depicts a real self because the author wants to actualize an ideal self but she know her limit to control it. She dreamed of things but she know it was only a dream and not forcing her to be in that situation. She knew and understand that she is the world of reality that exist and not imagined. This article comprises of things that people wishes but it cannot be done. This is reality.

  90. Each and every one of us has own fears in life. Since I was a child I am afraid of dogs, heights and in the dark. But now, I am still trying to overcome those fears because I now that I can do it and I need to overcome those fears.

    This is a true-self article, because she expressed her true feeling.

    ACT 185

  91. ACT186

    The 7 year old child is said to be afraid with riding bicycle, and afraid that her success and development would not be recognized. That’s somehow similar to mine, I always do good at school, I always perform well but at the end of the day it wasn’t recognized, and the fear here is, what if they leave you because they didn’t saw you that you did well, that you are not always just dealing with your ideal self but sometimes you can do better with your real self; and it’s sad they didn’t witnessed that and saw you, you could do it, that you can deal with the real world.

  92. Maecy Chandy G. Santos
    ACT 184 –

    I think, the author is scared of solitude. She want someone to be with her and guide her along the way. She is afraid of facing life all by herself.
    When I was a child, I’m afraid of ghosts, monsters, and even killers. I’m paranoid when I’m alone in our house because I think there’s a ghost with me or there’s someone who is going to stab my back or something. I overcome these by not imagining things like that and by praying. I realized that it’s just all in my imagination and they won’t really show to my face.
    The article depicts real self because she described her story based on her experience and how she really feels about her life.

  93. ACT -183
    The author seem scared to be alone. She’s afraid to face the real world by herself and still need a guidance in every action she will take. When I was a child, I am afraid of balloons until now because every time the balloon was pop I suddenly found myself with a fear. I feel like the balloon will explode over me. The author show her true self because she show her true feelings with her experience.

  94. Abigail Jallores
    Abigail Jallores

    Abigail Jallores – ACT186
    I think most of us, for the people who have the privilege to be with their parents while growing up, the experience that is inevitable to happen is that our parents would leave us someday and that scare us to death. That is my fear and maybe I will not overcome that fear.
    This article shows her true self since she described how she really feels about his father and about how she’s scared being left alone.

  95. Joseph De Guzman
    Joseph De Guzman

    Valenzuela, Joseph S.
    ACT 181

    I think the author was scared to the uncertainty that she may face on the real world.

    When I was a child I’m scared of being alone in our house because I always thought that there was a monsters at my back and I really think that there was. So it seems that I scaring my own self. I overcome this fear by letting my self to practice of being alone and it really works.

    The article illustrate real self because she described her story based on her experience.

  96. Del Rosario, Raymond ACT182

    I think the author is afraid of faving the world alone. Despite of being an adult, she still recall that moment when she is still a young little girl that needs the help of his father. Personally, when I was a child, I, too, is scared of being alone. I’m scared of things that might happen when I’m alone. How did I overcome that? I trained myself to stand on my own, to do things on my own, asking for guidance of my parents. This blog is explaining her true self as she is explaining how she was before and how did things happen to her.

  97. Jan Patricia Lynn B. Usita
    Jan Patricia Lynn B. Usita

    Based on what I have read, The author was dependent to her family and she wanted them to support her all the time.

    When I was a child, I was scared of the dark. I overthink a lot especially at night because I thought that there might be someone staring at me. I have overcome this fear as I keep on praying for God’s guidance and protection.

    As I’ve observed on the author, it was her real self because of her acceptance she showed and the experiences she had.

  98. SILVA, HERSHEY E. | ACT185

    Way back then, when I was a child, I’m afraid of being left alone in a dark room because I used to imagine a ghost that will show up to me later that will surely get me so difficult to sleep even I already drink milk. Sometimes my mother commanded me to turn off the lights in the dining area, I nagged because I’m so scared to go down because we are already laying down getting ready to sleep, so what I did is I go down hastily running, where you can hear every heavy steps of mine to go down and up.
    The author depicts a real relf, because it shows the emotions/feelings that time where she us anxious at the same time happy because she’s learning how to bike and as well as it is base on her true story.

  99. The article depicts real self because it shows her real experiences when she was still young and what are the things she is afraid of. The author is still afraid to face the reality by herself. When I was a child, I always cry when my mom left me in school because of that I always came in our room with my mom. Until one day, our teacher didn’t allow my mom to come inside our room anymore. That time I learned on how to become independent and work on my own.

    Ma. Ana Jane E. Alberto
    ACT182

  100. Neil Bryan Avellaneda
    Neil Bryan Avellaneda

    It seems to me that Yanna, the author, is not afraid of facing the life but she is afraid of facing it ALONE. I think she feels stronger if someone is with her by her side. I grew up being scared of the moon cause i always think that it is following me and for my fear to the moon be gone my father brings me to the beach to watch the stars and the moon.
    In the article what the author shows is her real self by truly showing what she feels and how she act.
    Avellaneda, Neil Bryan V. ACT182

  101. Rhia Sapa ACT- 184

    Upon reading the blog, I think, one thing that Yanna was scared of other than riding a bicycle is that, she’s afraid of being alone. She’s afraid to face the world and challenges alone. She’s afraid of not having someone to guide her in her life. Like Yanna, when I was young, I’m also afraid of being alone. Even until now, sometimes I still feel uncomfortable whenever I’m going somewhere or doing something all by myself. When I was young, I’m such a very dependent person. I always seek other’s opinions before I decide on something. I always wait for the approval of someone before I do an action. Now, that I am already a young adult, I’m slowly learning to overcome this fear. And first thing that I engraved in my mind to overcome this fear, is a belief that “Not everybody stays, so you need to trust yourself, be yourself, and love yourself because at the end of the day, the only person that could save yourself is no other than you.”
    For me, the author depicts a Real Self in this article because as she wrote this article she gave her true emotions, her real feelings, and her real self.

  102. Leilanie Vergara
    Leilanie Vergara

    VERGARA, LEILANIE M. ACT 186

    Riding a bicycle alone in her own hands, self-pedal and self-control scared Yanna when she was a merely 7 years old girl based from the article, but other than her fear from riding a bicycle she had is her fear for riding her life as an adult in the present. She was scared in facing the real life, the real world and was afraid on how to control it just like how she controlled her bike back when she was a child. She thought life could me more easier when we have someone to depend on and yet, she has to face it alone. Reading this article have touched my heart a big time.

    When I was a kid, I was really scared of the dark. I was scared to be in a room when there’s no light. A typical kid I was. Back then, I will not go into a place especially when dark if I dont have any companion with me. I feel like everytime I had to walk in the dark, I am blind. Can not see nor feel. But fortunately, I have overcome it by having to try it everyday. As I grow older, I understand now why it is not always a light that will mold us to be a better person, but also the dark that will give us a lesson on how to find the light. I understand now that kids are scared of the dark because they are afraid to see a ghost or something and just as like the kids, we adults are afraid to be in the dark as it means hopelessness but the truth is, the dark place could be the path to find the light we are finding.
    I was also scared to be left alone. I was this crying-baby type when my mom had to left for work. My parents, are my great fears yet my greatest love. They are the center of my life. I was so afraid when Im not seeing them or even not feeling their presence. When my father died when I was 8, i felt the world have betrayed me for getting the rights to feel the love of a father until I growl older. It felt like, I was alone. My father was the one who took care of us when my mother had to work far away from our small house. Just like the author, my father had taught me to bike and to let go. But as a child back then, it was so difficult to accept but I had to. I realized, it’s not the end of the world honey. There’s still more to life. And If my father would to see me, he would wish he wouldnt left to rest and I dont want him to think that. Thats why I backed up my self, moved on and built my faith in God. Everything happens for a reason. The best statement I can conclyde for all the things that happened to me.
    I think the story depicts both ideal and real self. For her, she knew already that she can but just hide it and let it slipped away. Her real self is the one who is fearful, scared and dependent. Her ideal self is the independency, she hoped if she would be more brave in facing what she’s about to step, then it would not be hard for her anymore.
    The story really depicts majority of us, afraid to see what’s coming but then we knew it along the way, that it would not be easy but the result will always be worth it. We just have to have the mind to see and the heart to feel.

  103. LUCAS, KEZIA DOROTHY D. ACT182

    *I think that what the author was scared of the most other than biking is the fact that she has to live her life independently and that she needs to walk in to the real world all by herself. I mean, I can really relate to her. To live independently is hard and really gives you all that anxiety and depressing feelings as part of adulting. Anyway, when I was a kid, I used to be afraid of clowns and I would cry whenever I see one. It’s just that they look creepy. The funny thing is I like McDonald’s even though he looks like a clown. I had overcome it now because I realized they aren’t really scary and they are just people who are trying to make a living. Sometimes, adulting makes you realize a lot of things. It’s kind of amazing and scary, in a way, but that’s just how it really is.

    *This article depicts the real self because you can read from it that she’s like going through the process of alienation because of the things that she is feeling. Also, through the emotions she have shown through this article you can actually tell that the real self is what manifests in this article.

  104. De Guzman, Rupert John G. | ACT 186
    The author’s fear is being left behind by her papa and driving a bike alone. Sometimes guidance might be irritating but I always miss my parents’ sermons and advice about life. When I’m a kid, I’m afraid of heights, to solve this problem my mom always bring me to carnivals to take some rides together with her. The article talks about the real self of the author because she explain and share her past experiences in life.

  105. Based on the article, the author was also afraid of being alone and doing things alone aside from riding a bicycle. When I was young, I used to be afraid of being away from my parents especially at night because I felt like there are people who will rob our house and do bad things every time we’re alone even if I’m with my siblings and all the doors in our house are locked. Now, I’m not afraid anymore because I know that God will always be there to guide and protect me.

    The article depicts the real self because the author describes her own experiences and the emotions she felt that time.

    Anne Danielle S. Pariñas
    ACT185

  106. Based on what I have read, this blog is a true self because it is the author’s own experience. Just like the author, we are scared on something. To be honest when I was elementary I’m scared being alone especially when going to bed that’s why everytime my mom is going out I’m going with her so that I will not go to bed alone. But as time goes by I overcome it.

  107. Santiago, Kimberly Ann C.
    ACT 182

    The author describe herself as being a young girl who is really scared to do things alone. She is being dependent to her parents and it seems like in everything she do, it is all dedicated with her family.
    Likewise, way back when I was young; one thing that I am scared about is to do things alone. I am scared of the moment when I do such thing and it will end up disappointing. I am a kid who always do things with the help of my parents. Hence, I was able to overcome it by believing with myself that I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me. I have learned to love everything I do so I can make things happen.

    The article depicts real self because it represents the reaction of her true self from the moment that she wasn’t able to do things up to the moment when she developed herself. It also entails her real life experience.

  108. Mark Jester Gimenez
    Mark Jester Gimenez

    Mark Jester Gimenez ACT 182
    The Author which is Yanna, is scared working alone, and afraid being left behind. She always want her dad at her side regardless of her age. She wants someone to accompany her , she can’t live independently.
    When I was a child Im also scared to many things, one of this is facing a lot of people or crowd. I always got scolded by my grandmother because of being very shy, she said ” You will never be a successful person if you will never change”. So when I enter junior highschool I enter many organizations, I made myself very active in school activities. As time passed by, I realized that Ive change I am not shy anymore, facing a lot a people became a normal thing for me.

    For me the article depicts as Real Self, as what it defines, “its the reaction of our true self to the proper functioning or malfuntioning of our total personality” Yanna shows her real reaction of being scared to a lot of things like riding a bicycle, being left and working alone.

  109. Adrian Montemayor
    Adrian Montemayor

    ACT185

    From the article itself, I thinked that Yanna is not only scared of riding the bike by herself but instead she is scared of going through challenges and obstacles without the help of his father or without the aid of his father. She is used to achieving milestones with her father by her side and I thank that it is one of the greatest moment in life, being able to share those achievements with someone you love.

    I think that the greatest fear I held is being rejected by someone I consider important in my life. Being rejected is not that bad, rejection is the way of being in another path that will lead you to the most amazing moments of your life but if you are rejected by someone you love, it is really hard because you have someone important to you then suddenly you will know that he/she doesnt care about you, thats the saddest part of life.

    I think that the author show her true self, because in the article Yanna showed her true emotions while telling all the things that his Father love to do. I think that showing your true self is really something that we must look forward on and I think thats good, we must accept and show who we really are.

  110. We are molded and nurtured by our family and I think that the author is scared of being independent. The author used to be with his parents since she was born and she learned things with the help of her parents especially her dad. I’ve also experience that, when I was young and our family went to the mall I’m very afraid of losing my parents beside me because I don’t want to talk to other people. Until now, I’m afraid of losing the most precious gift I received in my life and this is my family. They are my everything and I owe them for being me today. I think that the story depicts the real self, because the author was able to realize the fear that she is currently experiencing and that is a good indicator of being real to own feelings or acknowledging the real you.

  111. As for me this article is about the girl who can’t face the reality of her own. She still need the love and guide from her family to help her coping up with her problems. She’s scared to be in her own. Afraid that she might fall and no one was there to guide her and protect her.
    And as for me i’m afraid to lose what i have now, like my family or friends.
    ACT186

  112. the character was afraid of the real world to get hurt again and not to achieve what she wanted because of her fears. I’m afraid of height can’t last long up above, my knee can’t handle that situation, because when i was a child when my brother failed throwing me.

    the article shows the real self how we accept what we have and what we haven’t.

  113. Lyster Decena ACT185

    I am scared of dark when i was young, i hate when my parents turn off the light, walkin without lights on, that’s why they call me gay becuase of that phobia, until now, i hate dark places, because i don’t know, because i hate when i overthink that there is something beyond that darkness. And this article is all about true self, because it tell her feelings towrd the happening.

  114. Christian Jay Dl. Villanueva ACT185
    Based on the article the author was scared of being alone with her journey. She’s still seeking for his papa and she used to be dependent on him, and create an unanswerable questions in her mind since she was a child up to now. The author’s article for me is an ideal self because until now she was not able to go forward and still looking on the past.
    When i was a child I’m scared of being lost anywhere with my parents. It makes me bring back memories when I see little children at malls today because I see myself being like them before, lost and choose to cry because I cannot do anything. I realized that as we grow up we need to make ourselves be more independent and discover everything. There will be uncertainties but we must not be afraid of going through because life is full of challenges which will mold our own personality.

  115. Ericka V . Dueñas
    Ericka V . Dueñas

    ACT 182

    Based on my understanding, the author was scared to go out in her comfort zone. She was afraid of being alone in her life specially in facing the real world.

    When I was young, I was scared of being alone in our house believing that there are ghosts or evil spirits nearby me. If it was quiet and no noise, I felt like spirit is present. But this way of thinking was changed as my grandmother teach me to pray and ask for protection and guidance of God everytime I feel afraid. Eversince, I was not getting scared of such silly things. Yes, ghosts and evil spirits might be real, but God is more powerful than anything. We might not see him, but he’s always there to give us a peace of mind that we need.

    The article depicts the Real Self of the author because she clearly narrated her true feelings and experiences to the readers.

  116. [John Edward Fajarda], [CIV191], Moment, [MQ2]

  117. [Christopher James M. Gabayno], [CIV192], [Art Appreciation], Light, [MX]

  118. Roberto S. Jaime, CIV192, Art Appreciation, Lights, MX

  119. Louie Jay Bajado
    Louie Jay Bajado

    Louie Jay D. Bajado, CIV192, Art Appreciation, Lights, and MX

  120. [John Edward I. Fajarda], [CIV191], [ Art Appreciation], Magic hour, Lights and [MX]

  121. Allison Danielle Smith
    Allison Danielle Smith

    Allison Danielle Smith, CIV191, Art Appreciation, Colors, MX

  122. Francisco Nicanor Nitro
    Francisco Nicanor Nitro

    [Francisco Nicanor V. Nitro],[CIV191],[Art Appreciation],[Lights],[MX],[Contre-jour]

  123. Diego Almario, CIV192, Art Appreciation, Lights, MX

  124. Sebastian Campos
    Sebastian Campos

    Sebastian Campos, CIV193, Art Appreciaton and Lights and MX

  125. Cyrel julian Pili
    Cyrel julian Pili

    [Pili, Cyrel Julian] [ESE191] [Art Appreciation] [Lights] [MX], Depth of field

  126. Decerie Dawn Guardiano
    Decerie Dawn Guardiano

    [Guardiano, Decerie Dawn] [ESE191] [Art Appreciation] [Lights] [MX], Depth of field

  127. Mark Joseph Ramos
    Mark Joseph Ramos

    [Ramos, Mark Joseph] [ESE191] [Art Appreciation] [Lights] [MX], Depth of field

  128. Hannah Mishariah Baylon
    Hannah Mishariah Baylon

    [Baylon, Hannah Mishariah] [ESE191] [Art Appreciation] [Lights] [MX], Depth of field

  129. janchristian leonardo
    janchristian leonardo

    [Leonardo, Jan Christian B.] [ESE191] [Art Appreciation] [Lights] [MX], Dept of field

  130. Dante Franz Lalata
    Dante Franz Lalata

    [Lalata, Dante Franz O.] [ESE191] [Art Appreciation] [Lights] [MX], Depth of field

  131. Klein Kenneth Bartolome
    Klein Kenneth Bartolome

    [Bartolome, Klein Kenneth G.] [ESE191] [Art Appreciation] [Lights] [MX] Depth of Field

  132. [Kean Nehemiah L. Pascua], [ESE191], [Art Appreciation], Lights, [MX], Contrejour

  133. Jamaica Grace Dacono
    Jamaica Grace Dacono

    Jamaica dacono, ESE191, Art appreciation, distance, golden hour

  134. Neo Viray – INF 194 , , MO2

  135. Neo Viray-INF192 , Art appreciation, Moment , MO2

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