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Prolapse

He doesn’t know what he is saying. Doesn’t he see the pain? Can he not see the wound? Pressure has been applied.

I tried very hard to listen to the doctor.

Words kept coming out of his mouth.

Did I understand what he was saying?

Prolapsed organs and surgery is necessary.

What organs was he speaking about?

The doctor kept talking and explaining.

Additional information wasn’t helping.

Prolapsed? What does this mean?

Organs are falling out of me?

The doctor affirmed my understanding.

He must have meant my heart.

My heart was surely prolapsing.

As heavy as it was, as much as it hurt.

I would have to hold my chest.

Apply pressure to the wound.

My aching heart.

My now prolapsed heart.

Sometimes my heart swung so low.

I would have to pick it up.

It needed to be tucked back into place.

Put back where I thought it should go.

The doctor reached out and touched me.

Hand on my arm he sighed.

Your heart isn’t prolapsing.

It is the only organ that is not.

He must be wrong.

He doesn’t know what he is saying.

Doesn’t he see the pain?

Can he not see the wound?

Pressure has been applied.

Accommodations have been made.

Your heart is strong.

It is what is carrying through each day.

I think I need a second opinion.

Still convinced he doesn’t have a clue.

He promises he will fix my body.

But never says a word about my heart.

Your heart isn’t the issue.

You need to understand this.

Prolapses have now been fixed.

My heart still requires pressure.

The wound is still present.

 

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Kelli J Gavin
Kelli J Gavin of Carver, Minnesota is a Writer, Blogger, and Professional Organizer. Kelli’s first two books, ‘I Regret Nothing’ and ‘My Name is Zach-A Teenage Perspective on Autism’, were released in 2019. She has also co-authored 15 anthology books. Her 3rd and 4th books will be published in 2020 and 2021. Kelli’s work can be found with Clarendon House Publishing, The Ugly Writers, Southwest Media, Zombie Pirates Publishing, Writing In a Woman’s Voice, The Writers Newsletter, Writers Unite!, Academy of the Heart & Mind, Sweatpants & Coffee, Love What Matters, The Rye Whiskey Review, Spillwords, The Writers and Readers Magazine, Mercurial Stories, 121 Words, HerStry, Passionate Chic Magazine, Ariel Chart, The Basil O’Flaherty, PPP Ezine, Otherwise Engaged, Pleather Skin, Paper.Li, and The New Ink Review, among others. My Name Is Zach was awarded as one of ‘The Best Special Needs Books of 2019’ and one of ‘The Best Special Needs Books of all Time’ by Book Authority. She is also featured among the ‘101 Emerging Authors From Around the World’ with Sweetycat Press published in 2020. Find Kelli on Twitter and Instagram @KelliJGavin and explore her blog at www.kellijgavin.blogspot.com.

60 Comments

  1. sometimes our heart only needs time to rest in order to regain our old self. Medicine nor Procedures are just ways to fix the outer part but not the inner self.

  2. Shiela Mae Camagan
    Shiela Mae Camagan

    It’s hard to mend a broken heart but also we should avoid thinking about the pain. We should learn to accept, little by little, so in the end we will regain the heart that will truly love our own self.

  3. Mending the inevitable and broken piece of heart isn’t that easy. It requires process and patience until you get over the pain. In order to cure it, you must be brave to let go the memories that make your heart shattered and start moving forward without holding grudges.

  4. Its hard to move on. Our hearts need time to be healed. It needs braveness to let go all the pain that makes us feel burdened. Remember, every day is a new day, and you’ll never be able to find happiness if you don’t move forward.

  5. There are two types of broken heart, one that can be fix through operation by a doctor or literally broken heart and the one that can not be fix that easily especially if it involves emotional feelings. The one that the author feel is a broken heart and the pain she feel inside. She felt that even if the doctor says theres nothing wrong in her heart, she feel different. Her heart aches differently and it is not easy to fix it and no one can fix it but her. But it takes time to heal the wound and the pain in her heart.

  6. When a certain thing breaks, you will not be able to fix it anymore instead you will throw it away and get a new one. And that is far from reality of life when we say to fix a broken heart it would mean a lot to mend it. Yes, it is a long process but through that process you have to keep yourself motivated. Take the experience of failure as your inspiration for success. Focus on new interesting things, give time for meditation and time will heal you.

  7. It’s really hard to have a painful past and our hearts need to take a break and wind up. You will notice in the long run, the realization and understanding will definitely come to your way. There precautionary measures on how you can mend a broken heart that a normal doctor can advice to you, it is based on your psychological mind that will relate to your actions. but there are circumstances, that no one can but only you. Some may aid your outer self ,but not your inner self. You’re the one who will feel and understand the situation and the one to fix it.

  8. When we are trying to fix our broken heart, medicine and other medical treatment doesn’t help to cure our heart. The only way to heal and cure our broken heart is acceptance, patience and time. If we apply these three when we are fixing our broken heart, we are able to find a genuine happiness and start a new life

  9. A broken heart can feel like the end of the world, especially if you didn’t expect it, and moving on can feel impossible. Go through it, not around it. Help yourself to move on, surround yourself with positivity and happiness and time will come you will be healed.

  10. Healing a broken heart is not that easy. Yes, may took a long process a but it’s worth the wait. For we able to move forward, we should let go of the things that will remind it to is, we must look on the brighter side and also we must be brave to face new challenges in our life.

  11. Whenever are heart feels broken into a million pieces it’s hard for us to stand still but if you still do not realize that, that process is still part of the stage where in you need to go through it. Even if it is like a survival stage as long as you feel hurt and feels broken that’s enough fact that you lived.

  12. Healing a broken heart takes time and it was so really hard because sometimes You need to let go things and sacrifice other things to mend it and it ease the pain, be optimistic and fight until the pain fades aways

  13. Maria Kiela Vince E. Nocito
    Maria Kiela Vince E. Nocito

    There are pains that can be treated by a doctor and there is also pains that only yourself can heal it. But having a broken heart is hard to fix because we all don’t know where to start and to have our self back. Moving on is the best medicine to mend a broken heart. Acceptance, letting go, courage and loving yourself more is enough to heal yourself from the past or what you are feeling right now.

  14. Healing our heart or emotional state will eventually aid our own physical wounds or all remaining wounds. Sometimes aiding our physical body doesn’t enough to recover our physical being into absolute fullest, we must also heal our mental and emotional being so that we can fully recover in a certain problem or situation. According to Rose Kennedy,”It has been said that time heals all wounds. I don’t agree. The wounds remain. Time – the mind, protecting its sanity – covers them with some scar tissue and the pain lessens, but it is never gone”.

  15. Monica Ariniego
    Monica Ariniego

    In the article above, the writer wasn’t able to absorb the words and explanation from the doctor because sometimes, the only doctor that we need is ourselves. We need to accept the reason why we are experiencing our current situation. Acceptance is the first key and it will suddenly follows. Having failures in life is another way of strengthening out hearts, failures make us feel that we are not enough and we degrade ourselves but we must take it as an opportunity to make better decisions in the future.

  16. Sometimes our heart needs more time to accept what our mind already knows. There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept and things we don’t want to know but have to learn. Because it is not easy to cure and make the broken piece of heart whole again.

  17. Doctors can’t ease the pain of a broken hearted. It’s inside and we cannot take medicines to be better. Being broke waits a month or either a year to fix herself/himself from that pain. We should always remember to love ourselves first and let go of the things or person who broke us.

  18. It takes time to heal a broken heart. The process won’t be easy because memories will always come back, but in order to start healing we must accept the fact that there are things in this world that won’t last forever. Forgive and forget, forgive the person and forget the pain. Let go of the things that holds you back from letting go and let God heal your broken heart.

  19. Having a broken heart can also mean a broken soul. It is hard and may take a long time to mend a broken heart but we have to trust the process. In the process of fixing it, we just have to focus not on how broken it was, but focus on things that make us want to fix it.

  20. If your heart has been broken, it will take time for you to completely heal. At the time of the pain, almost everyone thinks they will never feel normal again. But God has designed us so we will heal from wounds. It’s amazing to see how our human spirit comes back again. Some people heal faster than others. Some people’s emotions go deeper than others. The deeper your emotions, the longer it will take to heal. But sooner or later you will begin to feel alive again and you will learn to accept this new feeling. Don’t fight the healing process and you will be on your way to smiling again in no time. So be patient with yourself. You will get through this.

  21. CAN THE WORLD EVER SATISFY THE EMPTINESS IN OUR HEARTS? Perhaps denial is the mind’s way of protecting the heart from a sucker punch it can’t handle. But sometimes, there your are, hiding behind your thoughts. But if things go wrong, you’ll have nothing to turn into but your wisdom and beliefs, invest in those above anything else. Because you are in a battle, always have been ever since you set foot on this planet. So fight and struggle like you really want to live.

  22. We cannot say that every pain is from wounds. Wounds that can easily be healed and treated. Some are hurt emotionally that you cannot compared it to the cut caused by the knife. It is really hard to have a heavy heart that carries pain, pressure, rejection and failure. Acceptance and optimism are the only way for you to mend and heal it.

  23. Healing one’s heart or past doesn’t need a doctor, it needs ourselves. We won’t be able to recover from something if we keep on taking other people’s opinion because we are different from each other. Just like how the poem shows about the difference of the doctor’s point of view from the writer, he/she won’t be able to help the writer because she doesn’t understandthe writer’s pain. Letting go of someone or something in our past is really hard, but we should keep moving forward, we must not stay in the position where we are not able to move just because of someone or something in the past. Be brave enough to let go of the things that doesn’t help us to grow.

  24. We can deceive the way we think but not our heart. Yes, it is really hard to forget someone/something that caused us pain, but we can heal by giving time to ourselves and accept those things that hinders us to be happy and also, forgive those people who brought pain to us. It’s not that easy but we can surely heal by some processes and acceptance in life.

  25. To mend a broken heart we have to learn to be our own best friends, we have to learn how to lve ourselves emotionally and physically because sometimes we fall too easily into the trap of being our own worst enemies. We love the idea of others loving us, and we forget to love ourselves. What we must realize is that our greatest task is not about discovering self-love it’s about breaking down the walls we have built against it. When we have the courage to push through these walls to know and embrace ourselves, despite our humanness, our flaws, and our rejections we also open the door to connecting in more caring, empathic and intimate ways with others who are truly worth loving.

  26. Sometimes we feel that we can do everything but we need to understand that we still have limitations and we need to stop and take a rest.

  27. ACT 183

    Loving ourselves is saving our hearts from aching and pain. Let’s take a rest if your heart is already heavy. Don’t make it ache. We should love ourselves..

  28. Angela Mae Posadas
    Angela Mae Posadas

    Our body needed a rest specially our heart. A long processs and patience is what we need to be able to mend the broken pieces of our body.

    ANGELA POSADAS
    ACT183

  29. We all have struggles, problems, sufferings and obstacles to face and conquer. We all go through in pain and heartbreaks. Our body might get tired but deep inside our heart, there’s strength lying within. Let our hearts rest even for a while.

    ACT183

  30. Love is powerful it can either fix or broke you, but the remedy to a broken heart is time- a time to heal. And I suggest, if someone is fixing their broken heart right now, give time for your family and friends they will make the best glue for your shattered pieces.

    ACT 183

  31. Christian Versola
    Christian Versola

    Time heals all wounds and eases our pain when time comes. There is no medical process on healing our heart . Yeah, it can heal and covers the broken parts in our physcial parts but it cannot heal and covers our inner part. Just like leaves that grows from the bareness of trees. All will be alright in time. Time heals!!! Let Go and Let God.

    ACT 183

  32. People around sometimes didn’t know the condition of our own heart. Only the owner of one’s heart know how much pain it is experiencing. The owner of the heart know how to heal, and how much it heals. We are the only one who can heal our heart. We are the first one who’ll see our own scars.

  33. It’s really hard to move on. But always remember the word FMAS. F stands for “Forget”, M for”Move-on”, A for “Accceptance”, and lastly S for “Starting over again”. I know it takes a long ride to heal your wounds but suddenly time will heal you. You just need to wait and it’s all worth it.

    ACT 183

  34. Marilou Mae Amparo
    ACT183
    There are point in our life that we dont need medications to ease the pain we feel. Tye only thing we need is to rest from everything and time to heal our whole self. Because we are not always strong and for us to recover we didn’t know how long we need because only time can tell.

  35. In life we are bounded with so much limitations and are always left with a choice that may either favor our needs or the other way around. We make decisions that we think will make us happy not anticipating that it could cause pain eventually. So to all the people who are in the same situation know that it’s okay not to be okay and just acknowledge the pain until you can no longer feel them. Take your time.

  36. It takes time to heal our heart. And we are the one who knows how to heal it because it is our own heart. We feel the pain and sadness so we are the only one who can solve or take away the pain we feel. It is okay if our hearts don’t heal today because there’s always a tomorrow to try.

  37. This article is similar to the quote I saw on twitter, “A broken heart is the worst. It’s like having broken ribs. Nobody can see it but the pain is unbearable everytime you breathe.” I agree with this quote but for me no one but our own selves could cure our broken hearts. Everyone has it own reasons for having this because people has different emotional state. It always depend how we handle things.

    ACT183

  38. Time heal all wounds. It may not be as healed as it was yesterday, but never forget that there are things in life that is worth the wait. We only need acceptance, and time will do the rest.

  39. Medicine is not the key to cure a broken heart, it is acceptance. When you learn to accept that things will never be the same, the pain you feel inside will vanished. It takes a long time to ease the pain but it will be worth it. Take a break and enjoy life. Heartbreak are just temporary because in the long process someone or something will take that pain away and at the end you will be smiling again.

  40. “The shattering of a heart when being broken is the loudest quiet ever”, as someone says. It is too loud to the point that nobody could hear— nobody could understand, nobody could notice, nobody will be there even you, yourself as the host of brokenness. People would say, time heals but i don’t think so, acceptance does. The more you kept on fixing those shattered pieces by means of force, the more it increases its false hope— that it’ll be fixed. And it might hurt you more, your wounded heart will bleed and bleed until it’ll become exhausted, zero capacity to feel, and by that time, you will feel nothing anymore. And Nothing will be left but a prolapsed heart.

    Act183
    Dana Marie Aliganga

  41. Not all the pain we are having can be healed by any means of medicine or by the help of any doctors. Sometimes we can only heal that pain, our own pain, it takes time but eventually once you accepted and healed it by yourself everything will be alright .
    ACT 183 – Tago, Louwie Jay M.

  42. All will be alright in time according to some philosophers. That’s why it takes time for a man/woman to move on ans love again. It’s like a cycle. Take your time and when it’s ready, Love again

  43. Healing is not a straight line. There’s no shortcut. It takes time and we must keep moving forward to be healed.

  44. Jesica Diana Dagsaan
    Jesica Diana Dagsaan

    The most painful wounds are those that can’t be seen but leave a scar. No one can understand the pain you’re going through. They’ll try to fix everything but little did they kno, the pain is coming from the heart and only acceptance can heal the pain from within.

  45. Kobe Christian Ventura
    Kobe Christian Ventura

    How do we fix a broken heart?There are times that accepting that someone has broken our hearts is not an easy one because that someone leave a great space in your heart.

  46. Jenny Sylvia Eustaquio
    Jenny Sylvia Eustaquio

    Healing takes time. It doesn’t come in just one snap. And every one of us has different versions or ways to heal. We cannot judge a person who is in the process of healing especially when they deal with it differently from how we deal with ours. And we cannot force ourselves to heal. We should give it time. So that in the end we will not get hurt but we will feel relieved because when we are truly healed, we are free from the horror of our scar and we can move on with life as if nothing happened.

  47. It really takes time for a wounded heart to heal and when that happens, you will just notice yourself smiling again, even at the things that made you cry.

    ACT183

  48. having a wounded heart is one of the heaviest feelings, but I believe that in order to overcome it, prayer is the key. For with God, nothing is impossible

    ACT183

  49. ESTACIO, PATRICIA
    ACT183

    When you thought everything is at place but it wasn’t because everything is falling apart. You don’t have control and no one has, even doctors cannot heal something broken inside of you. Only you can heal what have been wounded. Only you can help yourself to stand up and don’t fall apart ever again. Only you can build what have been shattered into pieces, only you.

    They have been telling us that “time heals all wounds.” but time takes a long ride and you can have your own shortcut and that is just by helping yourself to surpass what made you broken. It is like lego that have been built but destroyed by someone and there will be you and only you can assemble and create another better building of legos.

  50. It is sad ? , at the moment she is thinking of that thought , she is physically ill but hee heart was the only organ keeping her alive , but she is hurting emotionally , her heart is physically stable but her , emotional pain is excruciating, it cannot be fixed by any medicine , cannot be healed by any surgery , what she needs is acceptance and forgiveness.

  51. No one can heal the wound that you have inside of you, neither doctor. No one can’t even feel and see the pain that you have, because only you– yourself are the only one has control onto your feelings. The wound always takes time to heal, and scars need years to fade, and that’s fine. You must convince yourself and help yourself to grow from the broken and people around you will also help you. ACT183

  52. Its a simple reminder that wounds don’t heal the way you want them to, they heal the way they need to. It takes time for wounds to fade into scars. It takes time for the process of healing to take place. Give yourself that time and be gentle with your heart.

  53. No matter what surgery does your heart went through, as long as the damaged has been done the pain still remains. It may have a lot of treatment to cure the heart but the inner part of it will never be fixed. There’s no doctor or surgeon can heal the pain that we feel, it’s upon us on how we unwind ourselves from all the problems that we are facing. The key to a happy heart is acceptance, forgiveness and letting go of things that wasn’t meant for us.

  54. Life has many hardships and much pain, but with time, healing will come.

  55. We do not heal the past by dwelling there; we heal the past by living fully in the present.

    ACT 183

  56. Kim Jaira Dagan
    Kim Jaira Dagan

    Pain that can not be seen are the worst.

  57. Sometimes we need to experience pain for us to appreaciate the good things in life. Heart seeks what the mind wants. It gets tired and broken but it is never lost. It will always be within you. You just have to give a rest and let yourself feel and experience everything that comes your way. Follow your heart but listen to your mind too. Don’t depend on things we can’t control. Take care of your heart because that’s the core of your being.

  58. It is not easy to accept what are not meant for us that eventually give us a broken heart that takes too much time to heal than a physical wound. In order to fix the broken pieces of it, it takes a lot of time and patience to instill in your mind and heart that everything would be fine eventually. Just give time to your self and healing. Always remeber that it is fine if you are not okay today or tomorrow, as long as little by little you improve. All is well buddy and everything will soon be alright. Start to think that the pain their makes you stronger as a person.

  59. Cauleen anne millcent Ramosi
    Cauleen anne millcent Ramosi

    Time heals everything even your wounds, but at the same time with proper care. Everyone has been in their point of their life of being broken, being hurt and in so much pain. No one can help us be okay, even the Doctors can’t give proper medication. It is just us, ourselves who can help. It is okay not to be okay, but not forever. We should take actions, for us to be good again. Feel the pain, it’s okay, until it hurts so much then fade.

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