Head before Heart

Turn on the light they said
lest you lose your sight.
Listen to me not what’s in your head.
I know light can be very bright
when everything blue turns red.

You can’t see me for who I am
because I took away what I used to give.
You can’t hear me thinking you know how I am
because all you know is want defines live and give
means forgive so as to live and let live.

Turn off the light they said
lest you have a sleepless night.
Try to feel with me and understand what I said.
Maybe if you meet me half way I might
reconsider seeing you beyond what you said.

How can you forget me, when all I am
doing is showing you how to live?
When will you understand I am
trying to love you and forgive
what I don’t like in you even when I don’t give.

Adjust the light you said
lest you lose this fight.
I tried my best until I bled
all I could give but I was right.
You want what you want, nothing else mattered.

You never saw me for how I am.
You only saw what was mine to give.
You never dealt with me remembering who I am
because to you I was a means for you to live;
And so you misgive love for like in terms of give.

This is where I disregard what you think I said
because like and love differ under the light of right.
Because actions are the light we shed
on the words we said to make things right.
Because anger is fear’s bed lulling pride’s head
Because selfishness is an eternal night
that blinds you from what lies ahead.
You must learn to do what’s right before you fight
for what’s in your heart remembering it’s under your head.

Author’s Notes:

Sometimes, the hardest part of being a parent is reminding kids that we love them but we don’t like what we see. Sometimes, our disappointment in them can be depressing. Like young adults, parents can go into depression from being misunderstood and mistook as for granted. It’s not easy fighting everyday to teach children what’s right. It’s not easy getting through to children who believe in what they want comes first even in times when they don’t know that what they want is not in their best interest. Sometimes kids don’t know that loving someone can be so hard but liking someone for how they are is a different story especially if they are your kids.

Catch more of Pasithea Chan with her previous posts here. You can also find her brand of poetry on Facebook.