Unspoken is a poem written by Reiu Somao-I and shared to The Ugly Writers under the theme Terrible Ideas this month of July
Unspoken
“I’m tired” I could never say these words,
Not like I can’t but because I shouldn’t
I could not complain nor demand
Because I am obliged to work like a machine
A little rest would be considered like I’m lazy
A little laugh would be seen as a mockery
An intent stare would be thought as retaliation
Even my intonation would be interpreted as a condemnation
I’ll cover my eyes so they won’t see
That my vision is blurry due to sleepless anxiety-filled nights
I’ll cover my ears, for me not to hear degrading words thrown at me
I heard too many insults that I almost memorize it all
I’ll cover my mouth or better yet seal it
So that I won’t talk back even if they ask me
I’ll wrap my skin so they won’t see
My way of dealing with the pain building inside me
I’ll do as what they told me to
Even the things I shouldn’t, I’m willing too
What difference will it make anyway?
I’m just someone existing for their disposal
“I’m tired” yet I couldn’t give up
I still need to see my worth in this life
I still yearn to hear praises that I was deprived
I still hope to find someone who’ll hear me rant
There are so many things I still want to do
But I feel like I’m running out of time
I know my priorities, mainly their interest
Regardless if I’m happy or not, I can’t rest yet
Keep moving, work and do anything
You don’t want to be called useless, right?
Keep moving, don’t stop until they said so
No one wants to feel like trash, as they said.
Once worth would be only counted through money and beauty
If you have brain, at least try to earn every currency
If you possess nothing, just work hard
Keep on gambling using your not so good cards
Someday, I hope I could speak those words
As I take a break and savor the world
With this heart turned into stone, unbreakable and icy cold
I’m tired, finally, I found the courage with blood on my hands, a story not to be told.
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