Reborn

Reborn is a poem written by Reiu Somao-I and shared with The Ugly Writers with the theme Recovery for the month of March.

Reborn

After falling into your schemes and been trapped

Reaching the top but was suddenly dropped

I could feel the pain all over my body

I’ve drained all of my energy to stand up and get ready

I looked up in the sky and it’s still gray

I wonder if it’s still going to be okay

When I’m on the verge of breaking

I know I needed to do anything

Not to collapse after being humiliated

To recover after being stabbed and get rejected

The pain of seeing myself standing alone

Is protecting someone a sin for me to atone?

Twisted, money and status could claim innocence

Don’t turn a blind eye for your insolence

I want to shout my rage for you to feel my anguish

But I won’t drop to your level of rubbish

This is a silent war that you would surely win

But I refuse for this to become my fin

As I believe I always deserve so much better

So this time, If I say I give up, it doesn’t mean I surrender

It’s not my lose because I believe it’s yours

Throwing me away after using me

I looked around and there were too many doors

I have the option where I could be

Choosing to turn my back, forgive but never forget

If given a chance I would want to have a reset

I wish I never cared in the first place

And enjoyed the place I once called my solace

Finding my new beginning in an unfamiliar neighborhood

I tried to be careful to blend and not to be misunderstood

I learned so much and reminded myself not to get attached

Those feelings will make me cold yet it would protect me from any attack

I looked up in the sky again, it’s bright and cloudy

Better than before, though it’s filled with uncertainty

I could smile and laugh freely without worries

You’re just a part now of my sweet nightmares

I learned that falling hard and deep in the ground

Enclosed in a space with no sound

Drenched and soaked in the rain, helplessly

I got up on my own struggling and desperately

I won’t look back nor wish for you to come back

I’ll stop chasing love and try my luck

This time,  numb as I may be,  I won’t fall

I’ll continue to rise and keep on standing tall

I found a new reason to breathe and go on

As I look and wait for sunrise after the dawn

I would no longer mourn every night

Because you’re not the star anymore that gives me light.

Falling from the dark sky like a fallen angel

Drowning in the river like a boatman without a saddle

Crawling from the underground in a muddle

I’m reborn, made stronger from numerous struggles.

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