Reborn is a poem written by Reiu Somao-I and shared with The Ugly Writers with the theme Recovery for the month of March.
Reborn
After falling into your schemes and been trapped
Reaching the top but was suddenly dropped
I could feel the pain all over my body
I’ve drained all of my energy to stand up and get ready
I looked up in the sky and it’s still gray
I wonder if it’s still going to be okay
When I’m on the verge of breaking
I know I needed to do anything
Not to collapse after being humiliated
To recover after being stabbed and get rejected
The pain of seeing myself standing alone
Is protecting someone a sin for me to atone?
Twisted, money and status could claim innocence
Don’t turn a blind eye for your insolence
I want to shout my rage for you to feel my anguish
But I won’t drop to your level of rubbish
This is a silent war that you would surely win
But I refuse for this to become my fin
As I believe I always deserve so much better
So this time, If I say I give up, it doesn’t mean I surrender
It’s not my lose because I believe it’s yours
Throwing me away after using me
I looked around and there were too many doors
I have the option where I could be
Choosing to turn my back, forgive but never forget
If given a chance I would want to have a reset
I wish I never cared in the first place
And enjoyed the place I once called my solace
Finding my new beginning in an unfamiliar neighborhood
I tried to be careful to blend and not to be misunderstood
I learned so much and reminded myself not to get attached
Those feelings will make me cold yet it would protect me from any attack
I looked up in the sky again, it’s bright and cloudy
Better than before, though it’s filled with uncertainty
I could smile and laugh freely without worries
You’re just a part now of my sweet nightmares
I learned that falling hard and deep in the ground
Enclosed in a space with no sound
Drenched and soaked in the rain, helplessly
I got up on my own struggling and desperately
I won’t look back nor wish for you to come back
I’ll stop chasing love and try my luck
This time, numb as I may be, I won’t fall
I’ll continue to rise and keep on standing tall
I found a new reason to breathe and go on
As I look and wait for sunrise after the dawn
I would no longer mourn every night
Because you’re not the star anymore that gives me light.
Falling from the dark sky like a fallen angel
Drowning in the river like a boatman without a saddle
Crawling from the underground in a muddle
I’m reborn, made stronger from numerous struggles.
Give some love to Ms. Reiu Somao-I by reading her previous entries at The Ugly Writers:
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