You need to prioritize yourself

It isn’t bad to be selfish.
It isn’t bad to choose your happiness
It isn’t bad to think more for yourself
than others sometimes.
It isn’t bad to focus on your own
self-care and enjoyment

I use to be the person who cares.
I use to be the person who makes an effort and the person who loves without hesitation.
But part of me asking why should
I do that if I don’t feel the same way.
Part of me asking how to hold such soft and tender things that happen.

I need to understand that it’s okay to be tired.
I need to understand that it’s okay to walk away from someone who cannot hold your soul the way you hold theirs.
I need to understand that I’m not weak
failing to save someone who did not
want to be saved
I need to understand that it’s okay to focus more on myself for a moment.

For now, I want to lay down all my worries and lay down all the hurts within.
For now, I want to feel that if I made to heal others, sometimes it’s easy to forget that I made to heal myself too.
For now, I want to step back from pulls me within this word.
For now, I want to allow myself to nurture and mend and care for myself the way I care for others.

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