Fatima Mae Mendoza

In Quarantine

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Now under quarantine, I think everyone is forced to do exactly that. The world is forced into a quietness that should have happened long ago, every day, all the time.

Afterlife

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Heartbreaks hurt, but nothing hurts more than death, though you are not around to feel it.

She

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I look up to the people who believe in somehow hopeful; people who feel everything intensely, and allow themselves to feel that way,

Someone I love

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But to love someone at their lowest, to love someone despite how broken they feel, when they're lost, when you're willing to stand by them no matter how challenging or difficult things can be.

You need to prioritize yourself

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I need to understand that it's okay to be tired. I need to understand that it's okay to walk away from someone who cannot hold your soul the way you hold theirs. I need to understand that I'm not weak failing to save someone who did not want to be saved

Kakayanin ko

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Natatakot akong mawalan na ng tuluyan ang kumpyensa ko sa sarili na nakakayanin ko. Natatakot ako sa lahat ng disappoinment na matatamo ko mula sa tao nag titiwala na kaya ko. Natatakot ako magsimula ng panibago kasi nasanay na ako.

I met someone special

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By her side, I don't need to worry about holding back. By her side, I don't need to feel the self-consciousness. By her side, I don't need to be insecure or sad.

No better tomorrow

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Not everything will fall into place, but it doesn't matter, what you need is to accept. You can never make a better tomorrow if you cannot accept your yesterday.