Victory in Surrender
Staring at the ceiling, I was thinking about how I need to keep trying to win an unwinnable game of strength.
and the moment I catch myself, thinking of you, I knew I already lost the game.
for, how can I be strong when my shoulders weaken each time you will take a step away from me?
for, how can I be strong when I know my body shivers at the very thought of me not being close to you?
for, how can I be strong when my mind always misses the times we let the hours of the night pass us by and the wee hours of the morning welcome our sleep?
for, how can I be strong when my heart faints knowing that it will lose you as the days go by?
And as I close my eyes in pain for losing, my memories of you come rushing in, reminding me that I had strength in them.
for, I am strong because my shoulders were given a chance to feel that at some point you took some steps towards me,
for, I am strong because my body felt how much it wanted to be close to you,
for, I am strong because my mind knew we’ve spent countless nights together that will never fade, no matter how many mornings will come and go.
for, I am strong because my heart loved and will continue loving you as the days go by.
Losing you will forever be my defeat,
but to have known you and to have been able to spend time with you,
will forever be my victory in surrender
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