Maybe not now, but someday.

Someday, you will still feel hurt but it won’t matter, compared to the pain you’ve felt before. The pain that they’ve caused you. The pain that you thought won’t cause you. The pain from people that you thought won’t hurt you. For all the pain you’ve been feeling can’t compare to the joy that’s coming.

Someday, you will learn that all the pain was all for you. It was to make you even stronger. It was for you to know who will stay even on your lowest of lows. And, to know who will walk away from you. For pain leads to learnings, and learnings helps you not to make the same mistakes again.

Someday, all the love that you’ve given away will find it’s way back to you. You will love and be loved. You will have what you deserve. You will not settle for less anymore. You will stop looking for someone to make you happy. You will find what’s best for you. For that’s what God wants for you, too.

Someday, you will feel that it’s right. It’s finally right. You will find peace, happiness, and contentment. You will stop looking for that one thing that you’ve been looking for because it doesn’t need to be found, it is you.

And after all those times, you will have your own beautiful ending. The ending after all you have been through. The journey that made you want to surrender. The journey that made you fell down a thousand times. The journey that keeps you on moving forward. For that is what good after chaos, a beautiful ending to start to.

Maybe not now, but soon.


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