Adieu

Adieu

Why do we stop loving things that we used to do everything just to get it? Why do we stop loving a person that we put so much time to for days, months, and years with? Is it just a change of heart? Or we just tend to outgrow on things that can no longer benefit us or make us happy?

When we were just little girls, my twin sister and I love to play barbie dolls. We save up for barbie dolls. We do our household chores so our mom will buy us barbie dolls. We do our best to have good grades so we can buy barbie dolls. We love watching barbie movies and wish to have that kind of barbie doll. We were happy to get a barbie doll for our birthday and for Christmas. Our life was about a barbie doll that we only loves to play when it’s still new, and forget about it days after.

“Change is the only thing in this world that is constant,” they say. For me, it’s human nature, or our nature, to outgrew on things that we used to love—of course, barbie dolls. As the years pass by, we get older, we start loving other things, we gave our toys to our younger siblings, and all of our childhood will be just a memory to reminisce.

We were in 4th Grade when we stopped buying and playing dolls. We started feeling that playing toys are for children, and being 11-year old girls, it’s embarrassing to bring toys in school every Friday to play with our friends. Everything started to change.

Our friends stopped playing ‘habu-habulan’, ‘tagu-taguan’ and other games we used to play when we were in 1st grade. Boys would be out in the court playing basketball, while us – girls, would be sitting and talking about different things. They talk about periods, their phones, the internet, the boys playing outside, and other topics that my sister and I can’t relate to. In that moment I realized, things gotta change and that’s the reality.

People would stop hanging out with you because they simply doesn’t want to anymore. People would rather give up than die trying for something they used to love. A boy would stop courting you because his feelings changed. Parents feel we’re drifting apart from them.  People would stop loving you because you can no longer make them happy. Because sometimes, it’s easy to let go of things when there’s no reason to keep holding on.

We just have to adapt with the changes happening around us. Turning our backs after a bid of goodbye.

A bid of goodbye to those who gave up on you.

A bid of goodbye to things that no longer makes you happy.

A bid of goodbye to things that gave you pain.

A bid of goodbye to expectations and disappointments.

A bid of goodbye to barbie dolls.

A bid of good bye to you.

Farewell.

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