You're not here to lose, you need to absorb as much confidence you can in order to bloom on that stage. Everyone's expectation is not about you. They're not the one to tell you what to do. Know that you know better and you can walk life better when you are you.
Be the voice that speaks for those who have no voices, be the strength for those who feel like it's a cruel world and the only best thing there is to do is to end this life, and be someone who's light infects others to be more optimistic.
And I can't get over you.
I cannot just erase you in my mind.
I cannot just unlove the spirit that lives in your chest,
and just like how you vanished,
I cannot convince myself that you were just a mirage from a lucid dream.