Vanessa M. Enfectana

Grandma

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I regret every single day I made her cry. I regret being a stubborn kid. But most of all, I regret not spending her last hours with her. You know, the idea of losing her hurts a lot. But that very moment that I lost her, I lost a huge part of my life. A portion of me died with her.

Waiting

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You know it's crazy to think that I am allowing myself to get hurt while I have the chance to live. Cause I am waiting for a simple confirmation that there is no chance between us and that my part on your story is over.

Maybe

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Maybe it's time for us to accept that the world isn't just about you and me. But it's about those 7 billion people who's been struggling in life and been looking for their right ones. Maybe one of them belongs to us. Maybe they could be a better fit than we are to each other. Maybe it's time. Maybe it's time that I let you go and let you see another world… without me.

Sense

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Not an easy one… but I have to do this. I have to let you go and I know you'll have a better journey ahead. Don't worry as you will carry my heart as you leave, so you will never be alone. But if you finally find her, I wanted you to be the best you can. And the happiest you can be.

Fading

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My love, can you please be the one to walk away? I'd like to make sure that you are gonna make a step forward. Cause I don't wanna hear that you were stuck in a place where I have left you. I wanna be the one to wave my hand and watch your back. Please… please don't look back.

Bakit

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Hindi ko alam kung ano ang mas masakit. Yung ideya na minahal mo ako ngunit hindi nagtagal o yung hindi naman talaga ako, hindi naman talaga ako ang minahal mo.

Regrets, Acceptance and Forgiveness

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I am sorry. I'm really sorry that I didn't notice my own shortcomings and focused on your flaws. I'm really sorry that I wasn't able to accept you fully and forced the things I want instead of listening to you.

Chronophobia

Chronophobia   I never thought that future can be this scary For every step I take, every decision we make the future will hand us either an award or punishment. I am scared of several things, such as being left…

Hindi na mauulit pa

Hindi na ako ang babaeng kakapit sa mga pangakong itaga man sa bato / dahil kung tutuusin ang sarap ipukpok ng batong yan sa ulo mo. Hindi na! Kasi tanggap ko na! Tanggap ko na wala ka na. At hindi na ko muling babalik pa.

Pagbitaw

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Pagbitaw is a tagalog poem written and shared by Vanessa Enfectana to The Ugly Writers for the month of March 2020.   Pagbitaw   Nakatitig sayong mga mata Malinaw na nakikita Pero nandyan ka pa nga bang talaga O nadadala…

Old Pages

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Do you still remember those memories we had? Are you still telling others about me? It's just sad how this story of us becomes a legend.

Smile

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Everyone will leave you, either by choice or by death and the only thing left is you. You will always be there for yourself with whatever decision or even with death.

Life

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I've learned a huge lesson in life. That happiness should not depend on a man nor to anyone. It should be from deep within. Your happiness should be yourself.

Play with the waves

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Go with the flow and do not let the waves take you down or drown you. Whatever happens, swim. You'll be alright! The storm will be over soon.

Rise Up

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My eyes are ordinary but you can see the truth from it. It is a clear well of who I am inside.